AllFoxedOut
Arcanist
- Jun 7, 2023
- 474
I don't stop crying. So I drink. Can't leave my house, enabling mother and all I do is lay in bed as a waste of a human. Fuck. Don't know what else to say I just want this existence to end.
That's where it lies for me too. I just am too stupid to buy real SN or plan an actual method.Existing here certainly is so torturous and dreadful, I hope that you eventually find the freedom you search for, I understand just wishing to permanently forget about this existence, at least for me the only relief lies in death.
In a similar situation. Best advice is you have to put yourself in uncomfortable situations no matter how impossible it seems. It's all up to you.I don't stop crying. So I drink. Can't leave my house, enabling mother and all I do is lay in bed as a waste of a human. Fuck. Don't know what else to say I just want this existence to end.
What do you mean an uncomfortable situation?In a similar situation. Best advice is you have to put yourself in uncomfortable situations no matter how impossible it seems. It's all up to you.
Put yourself out there. Go outside. Do things you are scared to do like put yourself out there in society. You gotta realize everyone in this world is messed up and they mask it well. Even if you feel like a social reject don't live up to anyone else's standards go at your own pace.What do you mean an uncomfortable situation?
I was hoping you meant at the end of a noose but I understand. I have a doctors appointment Friday and I am seeing a psychiatrist Monday. Maybe they will help but I've been dealing with these urges since I was 6 or 7 so idunno.Put yourself out there. Go outside. Do things you are scared to do like put yourself out there in society. You gotta realize everyone in this world is messed up and they mask it well. Even if you feel like a social reject don't live up to anyone else's standards go at your own pace.
If you ever wanna chat my dms are open.I was hoping you meant at the end of a noose but I understand. I have a doctors appointment Friday and I am seeing a psychiatrist Monday. Maybe they will help but I've been dealing with these urges since I was 6 or 7 so idunno.
Thank you for replying and trying to help.
That's the dream, right? I am just too much of a coward to go through with it right now.I can relate to that! I wish this all would be over and I finally CTB to be free.
Thank you, you are kind.If you ever wanna chat my dms are open.
That's the dream, right? I am just too much of a coward to go through with it right now.
Thank you, you are kind.
Fighting SI, especially for violent or painful methods is the last big battle we do. Thank you for saying I'm not a coward.You are not a coward, well yes I also hesitate most of us do and it's natural, It is not an easy task to leave this world.