Ever since I transitioned it's like people make a hobby out of lashing out at me. Everything is me and my fault no matter how much I try to be enough for everyone and do and be everything that they expect. Meanwhile I've really struggled, haven't celebrated the holidays in years, and have been homeless while the people who have so much to say about me have support systems and have never been homeless and etc.
Now, even to the point of getting death threats, people still only ever can manage to put me down. I don't know how on earth I could've ever asked for this. Everyday of my life is just so excruciating now and I can barely ever get by. There's no point and I'm so tired of just constant scrutiny from people who owe me apologies for abuse, bullying, and neglect. When people are struggling they don't need scrutiny they need empathy and help!
There's no point to my life anymore and I'm so tired of feeling like shit all the time and no one ever really being there for me. I also don't want to live my life in fear of being murdered. I'd rather die on my own terms. I just need everything to stop because it's clearly never going to get better.
Now, even to the point of getting death threats, people still only ever can manage to put me down. I don't know how on earth I could've ever asked for this. Everyday of my life is just so excruciating now and I can barely ever get by. There's no point and I'm so tired of just constant scrutiny from people who owe me apologies for abuse, bullying, and neglect. When people are struggling they don't need scrutiny they need empathy and help!
There's no point to my life anymore and I'm so tired of feeling like shit all the time and no one ever really being there for me. I also don't want to live my life in fear of being murdered. I'd rather die on my own terms. I just need everything to stop because it's clearly never going to get better.
