Help Can't stop crying

[Moroze]

I've been crying over the same things for months. My head is full. I'm constantly feeling panicked. My heart clings to the the familiar, to what I know. I'm exhausted to the point where I don't have the energy to eat, make food, shower, brush my teeth, take care of myself. I can't get up from bed, I get all dizzy and my body feels heavy. I keep trying, not to cry, but trying to supress all those emotions, it's not working. I'm grieving. I lost friends. I lost my health. I lost my mind. I lost the ability to do basic tasks. I used to the the top student in my uni course, now I can't do anything. I feel like I'm fighting an army of demons and I'm being outnumbered. I am seeing a psychiatrist tomorrow, but he always puts me on medication that cause unbearable nausea.

 

[bpd.mess]

Have you mentioned the nausea to your psychiatrist? I hope he's starting you on the lowest dose for each medication. Also, I remember hearing someone once say to try to be 1% better every day. Even if all you do is wash your face or brush your hair, and then go back to bed, that's still progress. Hugs xx

 

[bipolar22]

I hear you ans been there before. First off all dont suppressing the enoition and letting yourself cry is important. Don't try to bottle it up. There's no reason to feel ashamed.
What the previous posture suggested is solid but if you manage to do just a bit of self care start with trying to eat a little. Any food that seems most soothing. Being severly malnourished will make it worse and spiral you further. So whenever you feel a tiny bit of energy try to have something light and quickly maybe ready to eat without much preparation. Im truly sorry to hear youre feeling so bad at this time

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds really dreadful what you go through, it's so cruel to me how there's all this suffering, I hope you find the relief you search for, I wish you the best.