madtagless
New Member
- May 5, 2024
- 2
i don't know what it is, if im just burned out or something, but i can't seem to do anything right or on time. i've always felt the same, like it's all for nothing, but somehow i've always managed to get stuff done, specially under pressure. now even the most trivial task seems impossible, not worth the time, so ill just waste my time scrolling or smoking. I DONT GIVE A FUCK A FUCK anymore. im writing this as i procrastinate studying for a test in about 6 hours. i know i won't get sleep, and i'll still study enough to barely get a passing grade, but fuck is this all my life has to offer. FIGHTING AGAINST MY STUPID MIND TO GET SOMETHING THAT SHOULD HAVE TAKEN ME A FEW HOURS AT MOST IN A WHOLE NIGHT?
i feel like ending it, i don't have anyone, and ive pushed away everyone who once tried to bond with me.
i just had to vent out a little bit, i see no future for myself, but ill hang here for a few more years (even with these thoughts that chase me day and night), i might hit the lottery or find the right person (BOTH AS UNLIKELY).
just so i dont feel like a total burden i try to do stuff, i use nic pouches, lots of coffee and listen to video game osts (minecraft usually) WITH MIXED RESULTS
i feel like ending it, i don't have anyone, and ive pushed away everyone who once tried to bond with me.
i just had to vent out a little bit, i see no future for myself, but ill hang here for a few more years (even with these thoughts that chase me day and night), i might hit the lottery or find the right person (BOTH AS UNLIKELY).
just so i dont feel like a total burden i try to do stuff, i use nic pouches, lots of coffee and listen to video game osts (minecraft usually) WITH MIXED RESULTS
