Help Can't overcome guilt for CTB

[Attrine]

I've wanted to CTB for so long but can never get over the guilt for how all my loved ones would feel . Last year my mom found one of my suicide notes and it still hurts to imagine how much pain it looked like she was in reading it . Does anyone have advice on overcoming this / making my ctb less painful for those around me ? (I plan on hanging or N)

 

[Slow_Farewell]

Honestly this may not be what you want to hear but...
There is no way at all that CTB is less painful for those around you.
Also, the method..well..i mean..while all methods leave a body..we can to a certain extent factor in the additional trauma to those that would discover the body so, please factor that in as well.