Nortu
Longing for an ending
- Apr 7, 2023
- 88
From one of my previous posts I can confirm I won't be able to get SN :/
I read up on all the laws about chemicals and poisons, all that stuff in my country. It's illegal to even import it unless your a genuine buisness. I'd probably not receive it or there would be trouble with the authority. I don't think there is even a sliver of a chance on that one.
So after all I have to retort to a more difficult version. I think when the time is right this year I'll first experiment to see if any none prescription sleeping pills could work on me or not. I have a tendency to not get that affected by medication unfortunately so I have to make sure it genuinely works. Then it'll have to either be ingesting wolfsbane or foxglove (maybe a mix) that I have easily available. Sure it will be a pain to go through but there isn't really antidote for it as far as I know. So people have just had to live through the symptoms or die trying.
Second option currently is hanging, I don't know if I could go through with partial being a certain amount present. Was originally planning it as a second chance if the SN wasn't working but I guess not anymore. I know in the place I'm going to rent for studying has an ordinary clothing closet that has a sturdy bar. It should be able to hold me up since I doubt I have other options.
Last but most likely not way of going forward is to fall off one of the cliffs available. A big bonus of living with lots of high mountains is the cliffs that come along with them. Every year we have hikers (experienced and not) die from falling off places they didn't realise were that steep. I would have to gather my courage for that option so I hope it doesn't have to come to that. Also wouldn't feel right to maybe traumatize random hikers that could be unfortunate to find me.
We don't have a lot of trains here (and same with jumping off cliff, don't want passerbys to see) anyhow. Guns are a big no for me, it would be impossible to get because of our strict gunlaws.
If anyone has any other options (that would be possible without prescriptions, drugs or poisons that could be difficult to get) then I'd gladly take suggestions ^ - ^
I read up on all the laws about chemicals and poisons, all that stuff in my country. It's illegal to even import it unless your a genuine buisness. I'd probably not receive it or there would be trouble with the authority. I don't think there is even a sliver of a chance on that one.
So after all I have to retort to a more difficult version. I think when the time is right this year I'll first experiment to see if any none prescription sleeping pills could work on me or not. I have a tendency to not get that affected by medication unfortunately so I have to make sure it genuinely works. Then it'll have to either be ingesting wolfsbane or foxglove (maybe a mix) that I have easily available. Sure it will be a pain to go through but there isn't really antidote for it as far as I know. So people have just had to live through the symptoms or die trying.
Second option currently is hanging, I don't know if I could go through with partial being a certain amount present. Was originally planning it as a second chance if the SN wasn't working but I guess not anymore. I know in the place I'm going to rent for studying has an ordinary clothing closet that has a sturdy bar. It should be able to hold me up since I doubt I have other options.
Last but most likely not way of going forward is to fall off one of the cliffs available. A big bonus of living with lots of high mountains is the cliffs that come along with them. Every year we have hikers (experienced and not) die from falling off places they didn't realise were that steep. I would have to gather my courage for that option so I hope it doesn't have to come to that. Also wouldn't feel right to maybe traumatize random hikers that could be unfortunate to find me.
We don't have a lot of trains here (and same with jumping off cliff, don't want passerbys to see) anyhow. Guns are a big no for me, it would be impossible to get because of our strict gunlaws.
If anyone has any other options (that would be possible without prescriptions, drugs or poisons that could be difficult to get) then I'd gladly take suggestions ^ - ^
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