Can't get back to sleep. Wanna SH.

[Livingvsdying25]

Can't get back to sleep. Wanna cut and not just somewhere discreet like my hips but on my arms.

But why bother it'll just make summer harder to get through. I already hate my body enough rn so.


Youtube vids & games but imjust awake... ruminating on suicide either way so.

Just exhausted. Really just wanna cut all over. Or preferably die.

 

[MrDarkness]

Ah I know the feeling, one night I was so depressed I cut my chest over and over and over again, every time I see the scars I think of how big of a failure I am, try not to self harm it's addicting but I'm sure you know that already, I hope your able to go back to sleep

 

[Livingvsdying25]

Can't get back to sleep. Wanna cut and not just somewhere discreet like my hips but on my arms.

But why bother it'll just make summer harder to get through. I already hate my body enough rn so.


Youtube vids & games but imjust awake... ruminating on suicide either way so.

Just exhausted. Really just wanna cut all over. Or preferably die.

Barly got any sleep like kinda an hour or so... I dunno... finally sleepy though its like 9am.

Like it was hard to get comfortable / comfortable enough to sleep most the night.

My body is realllllyyyy sore. I did do a lot physical yesterday plus the lack of sleep and the surplus of emotional flashbacks.. not the most sore I've been but yee... so not the worst I guess.

Gonna see if I can sleep this morning... dunno if I will be able to... might order some massage balls today...


Semi had some plans today but I dunno how I'm feeling about anything tbh. just gonna try to sleep. Lately I just wanna be drunk. Intentionally choosing substances at this point. Just a reflection of my personal downfall
Did order some alcohol yesterday.


Really tbh just wanna jump off a bridge. Its intense but something that doesn't per say require a whole lotta set up or something I can't back out of. Even after emotional flashback kinda night and my head is filled with less self harm & suicidal imagery but I still wanna die asap...

I did say I was gonna jump off a bridge this weekend. So might just do that... not as afraid anymore.

Anyway attempting to properly sleep now.