I understand you. Right now I'm writing some notes for my loved ones and telling them what to do after I'm gone. I'm going to break up with my bf today. In 2 hours I'll go to the doctor to get some antidepressants, for the first time. I'm planning to hang myself soon as possible, maybe tonight. I hope I'll have the nerve to do that.
Have you tried full suspension? I tryied partial a month ago and It was terrible, I felt like my head was going to explode anytime.
Have you tried full suspension? I tryied partial a month ago and It was terrible, I felt like my head was going to explode anytime.
I wrote a long note just explaining that I feel privileged to have shared my life with my loved ones and how many happy memories I have, how much I love them and even though I'm agnostic I explained that I will love them eternally because if any part of my soul survives it would love them. I hope if I manage to go there isn't too much chaos for them to sort out, what kind of things did you leave notes about? I tried partial again just a second ago with some belt connected to ropes but couldn't figure out what height to get it to and when I kneeled into it nothing happened other than pressure and strangulation feeling. Not sure how I'd set up full suspension but I've experienced same as you with partial it sucks so much.
I have a little sketchbook where I write about my feelings. Today I writed that I apologize for kiling myself, but that was the only way to really relief me from the pain I carry with myself. Told them to remember the happy moments and no the sad ones, told my friend to keep my draws with them and to drink and smoke for me.
Is it possible to do full suspension and get out of it? I'm going to do with a bed sheet haha
Is it possible to do full suspension and get out of it? I'm going to do with a bed sheet haha
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