somewhatdeadly
one more day
- Jun 6, 2025
- 62
My parents were forcing me to find a job, so I did. I found one, and the first day was pretty good at least as good as a job can be. The boss was a nice guy, and the tasks I was given were extremely easy. But the next day, I just couldn't force myself to get up and go. I didn't go.
I can't tolerate anything. I argued with my parents the entire day, and it makes me wish they hadn't had me if everything is going to be a problem when I'm only 18. I can't go to college, I can't work, and I don't see the point in doing anything. I just want to die, but I'm a coward and I don't have a reliable method. I know that's an excuse tho.
I just know I can't keep living like this. I feel like it will only get worse as I get older. Even if I didn't have to work or do anything, I still feel stuck. I asked them, and they won't pay for the college I wanted to go to. Studying would be easier than working, and maybe I could force myself to live a bit longer if this was the case but I guess that's not happening.
I don't know how, but I feel like I need to ctb in 3 months most likely sn or rope. i'd appriciate any reply.
I can't tolerate anything. I argued with my parents the entire day, and it makes me wish they hadn't had me if everything is going to be a problem when I'm only 18. I can't go to college, I can't work, and I don't see the point in doing anything. I just want to die, but I'm a coward and I don't have a reliable method. I know that's an excuse tho.
I just know I can't keep living like this. I feel like it will only get worse as I get older. Even if I didn't have to work or do anything, I still feel stuck. I asked them, and they won't pay for the college I wanted to go to. Studying would be easier than working, and maybe I could force myself to live a bit longer if this was the case but I guess that's not happening.
I don't know how, but I feel like I need to ctb in 3 months most likely sn or rope. i'd appriciate any reply.
