Venting Can't decide

[kapa]

Wrote my goodbye note, found the source for SN. I'm afraid to purchase though. It's like roller coaster, one minute ctb is the only thing in my mind, the other I want to give life one more chance. But i feel so lonely.... I can't decide what to do.

 

[Romanticize]

Purchase it, i did and its sitting well there. If a year or more will pass, I will try to get a new one. Or maybe it will be impossible to get, this way I will always have SN (old but still).

If youre living with someone who can undermine your attempt if they find SN in your posession, this advice is not valid.

 

[kapa]

Purchase it, i did and its sitting well there. If a year or more will pass, I will try to get a new one. Or maybe it will be impossible to get, this way I will always have SN (old but still).

If youre living with someone who can undermine your attempt if they find SN in your posession, this advice is not valid.

I end up living alone. I'm saving money for now to buy it although I'm scared for the delivery. But as you said I think it's better to have it around.

 

[drug]

if you can't decide id just wait to buy anything for suicide until uve fully committed

 

[Romanticize]

if you can't decide id just wait to buy anything for suicide until uve fully committed

buying this doesnt put you on any watchlist or someting.
I bought it so easily, 1 kilogram for fkin $5. Im not committed for now, but after my mom dies I will be. The more tools available, the better.

 

[kapa]

if you can't decide id just wait to buy anything for suicide until uve fully committed

Most of my life it's all a could think about. It's just hard knowing I'm hurting the people behind. But at the same time I don't care it's weird

buying this doesnt put you on any watchlist or someting.
I bought it so easily, 1 kilogram for fkin $5. Im not committed for now, but after my mom dies I will be. The more tools available, the better.

Wow that's a deal I only found the DMC and it's way to expensive