sivvie
Wanderer
- Aug 23, 2021
- 84
I have everything I need, I just feel really anxious these days. While I was ordering everything, I felt excited and ready. Now I'm overthinking it. Like, I genuinely completely don't want to be alive but I don't want my fear to make me mess up.
Before anyone asks me to reconsider, this is what I TRULY want, I just don't want to end up being kicked in the ass by SI. My only fear is failure. (and maybe a bad afterlife hahah; I'm Agnostic)
I want to do it when I feel ready and calm, but I don't know when that will happen. Anyone been through this before? Were you able to do anything about it or was it just time that helped?
Before anyone asks me to reconsider, this is what I TRULY want, I just don't want to end up being kicked in the ass by SI. My only fear is failure. (and maybe a bad afterlife hahah; I'm Agnostic)
I want to do it when I feel ready and calm, but I don't know when that will happen. Anyone been through this before? Were you able to do anything about it or was it just time that helped?