can’t bring myself to do it

[rosie]

it's been years lol, i wish i cbt when i was first seriously thinking about it

 

[nopointofliving]

It's okay. Don't be hard on yourself. You don't need to rush the process. And maybe it isn't the right time yet.
I also want to vanish soon, but practically, I have no materials for a peaceful exit, and I don't want to suffer dying too. I also suffered enough in life. I'm taking my time. Today, I decided to work hard for a month in hope I can make some money to purchase the materials I need. It's true I really want to leave, but I think it isn't the right time for me. Hug you tight <3

 

[rosie]

It's okay. Don't be hard on yourself. You don't need to rush the process. And maybe it isn't the right time yet.
I also want to vanish soon, but practically, I have no materials for a peaceful exit, and I don't want to suffer dying too. I also suffered enough in life. I'm taking my time. Today, I decided to work hard for a month in hope I can make some money to purchase the materials I need. It's true I really want to leave, but I think it isn't the right time for me. Hug you tight <3

thank you, maybe we're holding out for something better or just the right time?

 

[nopointofliving]

thank you, maybe we're holding out for something better or just the right time?

Life is unpredictable. Anything can happen/change at any moment. I can't say things will get improved or even get worse. But I can say we do what we can in this moment, and we try to be free from all judgements, opinions, memories if possible. If you can't CTB now, just don't do it. If you can take a shower now, just do it. Do whatever you can, this is the most important thing that we try and we fight in every moment. Winning isn't important, but having an honorable fight is.

 

[I want to end it]

it's been years lol, i wish i cbt when i was first seriously thinking about it

someone from 2018? me too

 

[IWantToSleep]

I'm having this issue at the moment, I'm worried how certain family members will take it, and am thinking of any way I can get out of having to ctb.

 

[Bullit]

I don't know just not ready...

 

[rosie]

someone from 2018? me too

yeah, been a long journey of observing and wishing i had the guts lol

Life is unpredictable. Anything can happen/change at any moment. I can't say things will get improved or even get worse. But I can say we do what we can in this moment, and we try to be free from all judgements, opinions, memories if possible. If you can't CTB now, just don't do it. If you can take a shower now, just do it. Do whatever you can, this is the most important thing that we try and we fight in every moment. Winning isn't important, but having an honorable fight is.

thank you, i agree. whatever we can is progress

 

[Deleted_9cKnXB34QG]

Same, I should have done it at least a decade ago.

 

[BlankUser]

I feel very similar. Even though I had suicidal thoughts most of my life, but the last 3 years were when I was really going to do it. I had the means prepared, I was in a perfect place, and I didn't do it... And I regret it... Now I'm planning to do it this summer, August probably... And I still don't know if I'll be able to do it.

 

[I want to end it]

I feel very similar. Even though I had suicidal thoughts most of my life, but the last 3 years were when I was really going to do it. I had the means prepared, I was in a perfect place, and I didn't do it... And I regret it... Now I'm planning to do it this summer, August probably... And I still don't know if I'll be able to do it.

may i ask who is that in your avatar?

 

[BlankUser]

may i ask who is that in your avatar?

It's me. Why do you ask it?

 

[painless_death]

Same. I've been suicidal for 4 years but i can't bring myself to do it, and i have no idea why. I mean, nothing has ever changed in my life and it's getting worse each and every day

 

[FuneralCry]

Yeah, I can relate. I think in my case it would be better I was never born in the first place. I think staying in the void of nothingness would have suited me more. I know how hard it is to die as it requires courage. If only we could get an peaceful death. I wish you the best.

 

[I want to end it]

It's me. Why do you ask it?

i liked the look of her. i didnt realize it was you.

 

[BlankUser]

i liked the look of her. i didnt realize it was you.

Well... Thank you!

 

[JustRandomGuy]

it's been years lol, i wish i cbt when i was first seriously thinking about it

Did you read wiki? There are some advices.

 

[I want to end it]

Did you read wiki? There are some advices.

There is advice on the wiki for those who can't bring themselves to do it?

 

[Deleted_9cKnXB34QG]

Did you read wiki? There are some advices.

Method is not the main issue here, it's just that some of us don't have enough courage and motivation to actually go through with it.

 

[throwaway123]

Method is not the main issue here, it's just that some of us don't have enough courage and motivation to actually go through with it.

thats true. method mostly never matters imo

I can't PM you but I'd like to, would be nice if you could send me a PM. :)

 

[TheBlackSwordsman]

We're talking about going against our own biological programming. Its like trying to get a computer program to do the exact opposite of what it was programmed for. But, this is the one event you can never be late for. You will never miss it. There's always tomorrow, and the day after, and the day after and so on, until the day there isn't, but if you reach that point, your problem's solved anyway.

 

[Deleted_9cKnXB34QG]

I can't PM you but I'd like to, would be nice if you could send me a PM.

I can't handle social interaction anymore besides posting some random thoughts here and on reddit sometimes, but my brain is mush at this point - I can't even formulate my thoughts properly. I doubt anyone could benefit from talking to me.

 

[JustRandomGuy]

There is advice on the wiki for those who can't bring themselves to do it?

Method is not the main issue here, it's just that some of us don't have enough courage and motivation to actually go through with it.

thats true. method mostly never matters imo

I can't PM you but I'd like to, would be nice if you could send me a PM. :)

i can't find that page, but i remember 2 advices:
1. drink alcohol and take benzodiazepines
2. treat you approaches as testing, and try to go further and further (its about partial hanging)

i think i found it on wiki hanging thread in tips.