Discussion Can you remember a time when you didn't feel so empty?

[Oscar.in.the.closet]

When was the last time you were just able to relax and enjoy life? For so long I've been feeling tense and anxious, like I'm constantly having to hold myself together and at any moment i could crack.

I'm trying to remember the last time i could just sit back and let my thoughts drift without worrying that i will spiral into a panic attack or burst into tears on the bus. Just leaving my house in the morning feels impossible.

What was it that used to make you feel happy to be alive?

 

[Polly]

Yes and it is agonizing ti remember when life was good.

 

[TheEndof]

Hm.... no, I don't think so. I can't remember a time when I wasn't full of dread. Maybe the closest would be in middle school, age 12.

 

[TAW122]

Maybe when I was in elementary school and everyone was more or less on the same or close to the same playing field in terms of social skills. I still had some people who rejected me, but at least I had some (albeit small) semblance of belonging among my peers. After that, I've drifted further and further as we all matured into adolescence and later into adulthood.

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

Only time I don't feel emptt when I eat a lot

 

[SnowWhite]

Whenever I'm off work and have no social obligations. I'm not sure why but I always feel pressured to go and see people that I don't really connect with just because I've known them for a long time :c

 

[Kassender]

Only a time where i could lie to myself and mask the gigantic pile of shit that is my life

But i guess that counts, so...yeah

 

[Skyview]

In today's world life is not so gentle to allow self indulgence, to be free and escape inner thoughts . To think of the time I was at peace with myself I'd have to blow the cobwebs off of my brain to find it !

 

[Broken Chimera]

Before I turned 21.