CAN YOU KYS BY NICOTINE PATCHES

[Thefuture]

I am afraid of crashing down back to reality or back to my past self. Part of my new self doesn't even really want me to accept that thought because it limits me and affects my reality. I tried to kill myself last year this time about. I said fuck it, I got addicted to opiates. I've been in a cloud for a whole year. But also my whole life. I was addmited to the hospital at 13 for saying I wanted to die. Honestly, from that point onward I've been living like my brain is detached and I'm an observer. Looking at a screen all day. No finger on the pulse of reality. Which I still find a joke, a game, pointless.... but I feel motivated to try for some reason. I have been having these new thoughts since getting sober. I'm not "sober" I'm on suboxone. But I feel like I wanna try things in life.. I feel like I have been programming myself through negative thinking. And it's impacted how I actually am. I feel violent becaue I cannot explain my thoughts eloquently. I have hope... I am fully aware of all the bad. I still think the world is mostly bad. AGAIN words escape me. I am gonna treat like a game. But I also have intrsutive thoughts like can this box of patches I was given kill me? If I put them all on

 

[nifii]

Nicotine ain't gonna kill you

 

[[HNO]]

it'd be painful:
Acute Poisoning: Following signs and symptoms
are produced in acute poisoning: (i) Burning acid
sensations in the stomach (ii) Salivation, nausea
and vomiting and diarrhoea (iii) Headache,
Giddiness, numbness and faintness (iv) Muscular
weakness and tremors (v) Cold and clammy skin
(vi) Hearing and vision may be affected (v) Cardio-
vascular manifestations include, slow pulse at first
and then rapid, Blood Pressure is raised and
arrythmias also develop (viii) Pupils are first
contracted then dilated (ix) Respiration is at first
rapid then slow (x) Sometimes delirium
convulsions may occur (xi) Death occurs due to
respiratory failure

you need around 100mg to die or 100 patches 1mg each

 

[Maudlin]

I am afraid of crashing down back to reality or back to my past self. Part of my new self doesn't even really want me to accept that thought because it limits me and affects my reality. I tried to kill myself last year this time about. I said fuck it, I got addicted to opiates. I've been in a cloud for a whole year. But also my whole life. I was addmited to the hospital at 13 for saying I wanted to die. Honestly, from that point onward I've been living like my brain is detached and I'm an observer. Looking at a screen all day. No finger on the pulse of reality. Which I still find a joke, a game, pointless.... but I feel motivated to try for some reason. I have been having these new thoughts since getting sober. I'm not "sober" I'm on suboxone. But I feel like I wanna try things in life.. I feel like I have been programming myself through negative thinking. And it's impacted how I actually am. I feel violent becaue I cannot explain my thoughts eloquently. I have hope... I am fully aware of all the bad. I still think the world is mostly bad. AGAIN words escape me. I am gonna treat like a game. But I also have intrsutive thoughts like can this box of patches I was given kill me? If I put them all on

Nicotine WILL kill you, but anything less than a massive dose you likely will recover from... plus you'll have the wonderful memory of the worst headache and overall creepiest feeling you've ever had in your life.

How much nicotine kills a human? Tracing back the generally accepted lethal dose to dubious self-experiments in the nineteenth century

www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov

I've picked tobacco before. Even through the gloves, sometimes it was more than I could take. Also, I'm a heavy smoker, so I should have been less effected than most.