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botanist_dude
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- Apr 29, 2024
- 53
What the title says.
Life has just become unlivable for me. I'm on the verge of becoming homeless and I can't drag my family into my miserable hole. My wife and my kid can stay with my in-laws so that's taken care of, but not me. Too long to explain but I'm not welcome anywhere anymore at this point (not their fault really, it's all on me).
However... I have a pretty big life insurance from the government and a private one that I got a long time ago. Recently most of my coworkers have seen my having a lot of health issues. Adding to that, I'm obese, smoker and a drinker. So it won't be surprinsing to them that I'd just die.
My plan is to take SN during office hours, get rid of everything (fortunately I am in charge of disposing the trash so that will be easy) and just wait for the chemical to take effect by the time I'm leaving my job. I'll just send a text to my wife saying "I don't feel good" and hoping I'll be starting to die. By the time any cops or ambulence get here, I'll probably be dead. Some points to consider
- I live in a very poor country so the state doesn't conduct autopsies unless someone pays for them. Too many people die daily here so they think is pointless
- This office and this building is really old, and many people have died here before since this is a healthcare center. Another death won't impact anything
- The government life insurance is given to the widow regarless of how the spouse died. So that's a relief
I have TWO concerns:
- Timing: that I'll die way later my exit hours, or way before. Both would mean a hindrance to my idea of staging it like a natural death
- The discoloring of the mouth and skin. There are people here who are well trained in poisons, so I'm afraid they could know I actually CTB instead of thinking it was a natural death
What do you guys think?
Life has just become unlivable for me. I'm on the verge of becoming homeless and I can't drag my family into my miserable hole. My wife and my kid can stay with my in-laws so that's taken care of, but not me. Too long to explain but I'm not welcome anywhere anymore at this point (not their fault really, it's all on me).
However... I have a pretty big life insurance from the government and a private one that I got a long time ago. Recently most of my coworkers have seen my having a lot of health issues. Adding to that, I'm obese, smoker and a drinker. So it won't be surprinsing to them that I'd just die.
My plan is to take SN during office hours, get rid of everything (fortunately I am in charge of disposing the trash so that will be easy) and just wait for the chemical to take effect by the time I'm leaving my job. I'll just send a text to my wife saying "I don't feel good" and hoping I'll be starting to die. By the time any cops or ambulence get here, I'll probably be dead. Some points to consider
- I live in a very poor country so the state doesn't conduct autopsies unless someone pays for them. Too many people die daily here so they think is pointless
- This office and this building is really old, and many people have died here before since this is a healthcare center. Another death won't impact anything
- The government life insurance is given to the widow regarless of how the spouse died. So that's a relief
I have TWO concerns:
- Timing: that I'll die way later my exit hours, or way before. Both would mean a hindrance to my idea of staging it like a natural death
- The discoloring of the mouth and skin. There are people here who are well trained in poisons, so I'm afraid they could know I actually CTB instead of thinking it was a natural death
What do you guys think?