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i intend to ctb before i turn 30 no matter what. in my opinion, life only gets worse from the age of 30 or even before. if your life wasn't good before 30, I can't see a way it can improve from there on out. I rationally see no reason to want to continue living past that age. (I mean if your life has been shit since you were 14 for example) . But I'm curious. Do you know anyone whose life was better after turning 30?
 
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Life is unpredictable. My two best decades were my 20s and my 50s.
 
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locked*n*loaded

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I suppose it can for some people. It didn't for me in any way, shape, or form. From 30 on (that's 29 years) nothing good at all has happened for me. Nothing.
 
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i intend to ctb before i turn 30 no matter what. in my opinion, life only gets worse from the age of 30 or even before. if your life wasn't good before 30, I can't see a way it can improve from there on out. I rationally see no reason to want to continue living past that age. (I mean if your life has been shit since you were 14 for example) . But I'm curious. Do you know anyone whose life was better after turning 30?
It depends on what you mean by "better" . Generally health declines as you age, so no life doesnt get better as you age. Financial life can get better as you age if you work and save money or in various other ways like with investments etc. For people like me life went straight downhill after about 38 or 37 years of age. Mentally it depends. It can get better it can get worse . But if you're like me where your mental health is connected to your physical well being then most likely it'll get worse
 
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amaterasu :-)

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Life is unpredictable. My two best decades were my 20s and my 50s.
Interesting, it's strange to think that a person's 50s can be better than before 20, and it doesn't get better in your 30s and 40s but suddenly at 50 it got better
I suppose it can for some people. It didn't for me in any way, shape, or form. From 30 on (that's 29 years) nothing good at all has happened for me. Nothing.
This is exactly how I imagine in my case 😅
 
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i intend to ctb before i turn 30 no matter what. in my opinion, life only gets worse from the age of 30 or even before. if your life wasn't good before 30, I can't see a way it can improve from there on out. I rationally see no reason to want to continue living past that age. (I mean if your life has been shit since you were 14 for example) . But I'm curious. Do you know anyone whose life was better after turning 30?

how severe is the trauma you've been through?
 
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Praestat_Mori

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I had a good life up to the age of 30. It got even better until the age of early 40s.

But then I failed in life and a downward spiral set in. In my case, it's a big failure in life that killed me. I'm still perfectly healthy and I'm almost 50 by now but still suffer from the failure.

None of us knows the future - it can get better but also worse.
 
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amaterasu :-)

amaterasu :-)

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how severe is the trauma you've been through?
don't know how severe it is; it's more the number of traumas than just one hard trauma.
i was hoping to cure my problems with LSD, it did absolutely nothing. but now I have another trauma on the list
 
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set0553

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i intend to ctb before i turn 30 no matter what. in my opinion, life only gets worse from the age of 30 or even before. if your life wasn't good before 30, I can't see a way it can improve from there on out. I rationally see no reason to want to continue living past that age. (I mean if your life has been shit since you were 14 for example) . But I'm curious. Do you know anyone whose life was better after turning 30?
Technically, yes, life can get better anytime, any age, but in my experience, no.. I do know after 50 im just waiting out til my dogs are gone, so I can quickly join them in the hereafter, or whatever there is. 😂
 
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amaterasu :-)

amaterasu :-)

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I had a good life up to the age of 30. It got even better until the age of early 40s.

But then I failed in life and a downward spiral set in. In my case, it's a big failure in life that killed me. I'm still perfectly healthy and I'm almost 50 by now but still suffer from the failure.

None of us knows the future - it can get better but also worse.

It's clear that without a job / financial future, and declining mental health, hopes seem minimal... D:
 
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Apathy79

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Yeah loads of people's lives get better after 30. For most people they go from poor to financially comfortable in this period. Most people get married and have kids then. Health is still fine - it doesn't improve but it doesn't meaningfully deteriorate until at least 50s, later if you keep on top if it and have some luck, unless you want to play competitive sport or something. Mentally you lose a little bit of sharpness (I can't match my minesweeper scores or bullet chess prowess of my 20s anymore) but it's replaced by a much deeper knowledge about yourself and the world. There's nothing magical about the age that signals it's all over.
 
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amaterasu :-)

amaterasu :-)

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Yeah loads of people's lives get better after 30. For most people they go from poor to financially comfortable in this period. Most people get married and have kids then. Health is still fine - it doesn't improve but it doesn't meaningfully deteriorate until at least 50s, later if you keep on top if it and have some luck, unless you want to play competitive sport or something. Mentally you lose a little bit of sharpness (I can't match my minesweeper scores or bullet chess prowess of my 20s anymore) but it's replaced by a much deeper knowledge about yourself and the world. There's nothing magical about the age that signals it's all over.
In my country, if you have a steady job and can afford to live away from your daddies house, you're very lucky. I can't even get trash jobs, basically. Im what you call a neet
 
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frayed

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don't know how severe it is; it's more the number of traumas than just one hard trauma.
i was hoping to cure my problems with LSD, it did absolutely nothing. but now I have another trauma on the list

it's a choice then, i guess. there's no guarantee if life will get better as you imagine it, especially when mental health issues are at play. but the journey you may undertake in the direction of a better life might feel meaningful, or even fulfilling at times. i think that's what most people can hope for in this life.
 
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SchizoGymnast

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I'm telling you this with all honesty...my life is way better after 30. (I'm 35, soon to be 36.) I think I'm one of those lucky people that ages in reverse. But on a more relatable note, even if your life itself doesn't get much better...your ability to handle the normal challenges of life improves a lot. Have a good source of income, some activities you love, and keep your brain and body active, you'll be alright.
 
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whywere

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YES, mine.

Now, I had gall bladder cancer and in a nasty car crash, car crash NOT my fault, just wrong place at the wrong time.

Even with the prior said, I have had the opportunity to travel and see so much and next year, I am going to start next year a long trip that I have been planning and saving up for.

Yes, I have 24/7 chronic pain, massive depression, BPD and more, HOWEVER, I have lived long enough to at least have an idea about life, have had enough life's mistakes, and I am 69, way past 30.

Close one's eyes and see and also see way past one's nose and explore not only one's world but all the possibilities.

Lots of love and exploring to everyone,

Walter
 
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Jealous Blackheart

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Aug 25, 2023
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Short answer: yes.

Will it? That isn't guaranteed.

"Better" is a comparative word. If you had a fantastic childhood and loving parents and great friends, good health, and no responsibilities, doing better than that is going to be challenging.

If you had awful parents, were bullied, abused, had no freedom, was responsible for things no child should be responsible for, and spent your youth working for money you weren't allowed to keep or pennies on the dollar, it is going to be much easier to life a better life as you get older and are no longer subject to the forces that made your life miserable as a child.

*When it comes to earning potential: "the US Bureau of Labor Statistics data indicates that median income for American workers peaks between the ages of 45 and 54."

*When it comes to physical health "a recent study indicates that the human body experiences accelerated aging in two distinct bursts, specifically around the ages of 44 and 60. This contrasts with the idea of a gradual, linear decline in aging."

I'm not 30 yet but I can say that getting older made my life objectively better. The worse your life was as a child the easier it is to be "better". Is better enough? That's another matter entirely. There are many people who yearn for their childhood, to go back to the "good ole days". I have never been one of those people. Even knowing everything I know now, there is no desire in me whatsoever to return to any year in my life before I became an adult.

* Feel free to search these claims. I stand by them, I'm just too lazy to cite my sources.
 
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J&L383

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Jul 18, 2023
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Life is unpredictable. My two best decades were my 20s and my 50s.
Absolutely, it's worth giving it a shot! 30 is far from the end.
 
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Forever Sleep

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May 4, 2022
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At whatever stage, you have to try to set things up to be better. Of course, it could still fail! But sure, I think it's possible.

For me though, my 20's were pretty bad. I wasn't making much progress in the career I studied for. I was working part time in a retail job I thoroughly detested. Therefore, I made the decision to do another degree at 28. That was again, another risk- another creative degree (my first one was too but, different subject.) Anyhow, that did actually pay off for me. My 30's were actually the best years of my life. (To date.)
 
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amaterasu :-)

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it's a choice then, i guess. there's no guarantee if life will get better as you imagine it, especially when mental health issues are at play. but the journey you may , or even fulfilling at times. i think that's what most people can hope for in this life.
Simply the best life I could have (for which I would still have to make great efforts), would not be preferable to the opportunity of having ctb now with sn, or within a while. Not to mention that changing at this point would be a humiliation, so I'm just trying to align my thinking with the idea of ctb, at this point nothing can change my mind.... my only hope would be to find a job even if it's garbage but I'm not even going to find it.
Also, seeing the current twists in world politics and all that... I wonder if it's worth living for what we're going to witness in the coming decades. i think i do well with deciding to have ctb one of these days since the future prospects doesnt seem very flattery to me
I'm telling you this with all honesty...my life is way better after 30. (I'm 35, soon to be 36.) I think I'm one of those lucky people that ages in reverse. But on a more relatable note, even if your life itself doesn't get much better...your ability to handle the normal challenges of life improves a lot. Have a good source of income, some activities you love, and keep your brain and body active, you'll be alright.
one of my biggest hopes would be to improve physically, even if it's getting older xD, but I don't think I can wait that long only to find out if I'm one of the lucky ones (at least I'm not bald lol)
 
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Simply the best life I could have (for which I would still have to make great efforts), would not be preferable to the opportunity of having ctb now with sn, or within a while. Not to mention that changing at this point would be a humiliation, so I'm just trying to align my thinking with the idea of ctb, at this point nothing can change my mind.... my only hope would be to find a job even if it's garbage but I'm not even going to find it.

this is not very different from how i view my own situation, so i will not try to convince you otherwise. i'm sure you did not arrive at this conclusion lightly. but i implore you to not take any hasty actions at this time.
 
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Simply the best life I could have (for which I would still have to make great efforts), would not be preferable to the opportunity of having ctb now with sn, or within a while. Not to mention that changing at this point would be a humiliation, so I'm just trying to align my thinking with the idea of ctb, at this point nothing can change my mind.... my only hope would be to find a job even if it's garbage but I'm not even going to find it.
Also, seeing the current twists in world politics and all that... I wonder if it's worth living for what we're going to witness in the coming decades. i think i do well with deciding to have ctb one of these days since the future prospects doesnt seem very flattery to me

one of my biggest hopes would be to improve physically, even if it's getting older xD, but I don't think I can wait that long only to find out if I'm one of the lucky ones (at least I'm not bald lol)
If it makes you feel any better...I'm a gymnast at 35 whereas I had no athletic prowess at all when I was younger. My singing voice is also better now that I'm older.
 
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Praestat_Mori

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my only hope would be to find a job even if it's garbage but I'm not even going to find it.
I wouldn't see hope in that - that's why I'm not applying for anything that isn't a profit for myself.

Also, seeing the current twists in world politics and all that... I wonder if it's worth living for what we're going to witness in the coming decades.
That's subjective - honestly, I would see better chances for myself if the world was in ashes like after WWII and chances for a majority of people are equal again. Imo the world desperately needs a total reset and slow down.
 
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amaterasu :-)

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this is not very different from how i view my own situation, so i will not try to convince you otherwise. i'm sure you did not arrive at this conclusion lightly. but i implore you to not take any hasty actions at this time.
Even if I were to do it I can't so easy... with sn I hardly have any chances to be alone long enough, and when I find it, Im uncapable to carry it out, and end up posponing it. it's possibly what has kept me from trying yet, for better or worse :/
I wouldn't see hope in that - that's why I'm not applying for anything that isn't a profit for myself.


That's subjective - honestly, I would see better chances for myself if the world was in ashes like after WWII and chances for a majority of people are equal again. Imo the world desperately needs a total reset and slow down.
Well, for me it's a hope,
because it would get rid of those responsible for my life being a living hell,
which is the main reason for wanting ctb, but for various reasons that seems very unlikely
 
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