DoomedDarkCircles
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- Feb 23, 2024
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I'm 22, unemployed, almost concluding college (kinda late and dragging my feet and feeling really disconnected) and I spended most of my life doomscrolling and doing useless stuff. Suicide has been on my mind as my likely end and as a solution since I was a child, and my mental state is kinda of a mess since then too (depressed and suspected OCD, autism and ADHD). My mother and father as a family were very troublesome, but now they're separated and I live with my father, and it's calm — both my parents are getting better too. My mind has always been troubled and I seriously considered suicide from 2022 to this year, but I discovered things I'm interested and I want to accomplish, even if I'm still not doing fine.
I want to change, but I feel I'm so fucking behind: my parents have PhD and stuff besides being psychologically unstable, and the rest of my family is doing great, too. My peers are also in a good place in life. And I'm here, promising myself I will change, but I always come back to square one. I didn't accomplished anything yet and I really wasted my entire life.
There is still hope for me?
I want to change, but I feel I'm so fucking behind: my parents have PhD and stuff besides being psychologically unstable, and the rest of my family is doing great, too. My peers are also in a good place in life. And I'm here, promising myself I will change, but I always come back to square one. I didn't accomplished anything yet and I really wasted my entire life.
There is still hope for me?
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