can i possibly fix my life?

[moonflow3r]

im still pretty young. im not even 19 yet. but I'm hyperfixated on the idea that it doesn't matter if i ruin my future prospects because I'm going to kill myself. i recon this is a very damaging mindset since i got good things going on for me rn. I'm in uni, but I've been failing almost on purpose because i tell myself it doesn't matter since I'm committing suicide. i don't want to die, but, i don't want to live with the consequences of me screwing up my studies either. everything is money in life, and, I've been sheltered for so long.

does this make any sense ?

 

[Apokryphiel]

A life can change so much in just a year, but the results are entirely up to you. It can be for better or for worse. The best advice I have for you is to persevere until you are absolutely certain regarding all points of life. You have all to gain and all to lose.