bye

[m7374838]

gonna ctb tonight. i'm trying partial hanging and probably just take whatever's left of my antidepressants just because. gonna update later when i'm actually doing it. i'm scared but i hope it works :(

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I hope u find peace. Good luck!

 

[Culprit]

Good luck <3

 

[Buffy]

Wishing you the best.

 

[reyonrays]

May your departure be peaceful and be free of suffering! Wishing you good luck

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best.

 

[SA1994EC]

I wish your soul and spirit to be calm and peaceful at the end. You deserve it.

 

[KillingPain267]

I wouldn't advise taking the pills. Partial has a good chance of failing, so if you fail and back out the pills will cause you lots of a pain, so much that you may call 911. At that point you will be sent to a psych ward afterwards and it might make your life worse long term. Just a thought. But by just doing partial and it fails, you don't have to tell anyone and can try again another time.

 

[SVEN]

Every good wish for finding peace and rest.

 

[m7374838]

I wouldn't advise taking the pills. Partial has a good chance of failing, so if you fail and back out the pills will cause you lots of a pain, so much that you may call 911. At that point you will be sent to a psych ward afterwards and it might make your life worse long term. Just a thought. But by just doing partial and it fails, you don't have to tell anyone and can try again another time.

what would you suggest instead of partial? i don't have a tub for drowning or firearms or anything like that, all i have is a rope and a bunk bed

 

[Derpiee]

Wish you peace.

 

[KillingPain267]

what would you suggest instead of partial? i don't have a tub for drowning or firearms or anything like that, all i have is a rope and a bunk bed

The method partial hanging is not the problem. It's the antidepressant pill overdose you mentioned "just because". If you tried partial hanging but you don't pass out then nothing happens, you can always try again another time with different equipment. But if you first took lots of pills and then tried partial hanging, but didn't pass out, then you will be sick and go to the hospital where they will know you tried to kill yourself. It will make things worse, unless you want the attention. So I am just warning you to not try to overdose on pills because it does nothing but harm.

 

[m7374838]

The method partial hanging is not the problem. It's the antidepressant pill overdose you mentioned "just because". If you tried partial hanging but you don't pass out then nothing happens, you can always try again another time with different equipment. But if you first took lots of pills and then tried partial hanging, but didn't pass out, then you will be sick and go to the hospital where they will know you tried to kill yourself. It will make things worse, unless you want the attention. So I am just warning you to not try to overdose on pills because it does nothing but harm.

ah, okay. thanks for the clarification

 

[Redacted24]

Hope your journey is calm and peaceful.

 

[m7374838]

i don't really know if i'm supposed to update in the replies or by editing the original message… but update: my friend called the ambulance on me. i did get the paramedics to leave after refusing to go to the hospital but now my mom is suspicious, although i managed to convince her not to worry about me as well. i've blocked all of my friends now which i would've preferred not having to do but it is what it is :( any chance i had left of backing out is gone now but at least i'll be able to force myself. i'm gonna watch my favourite movie and shower and then ctb as soon as my mom is asleep

oh and i forgot to mention that my mom confiscated my meds but she doesn't know about my rope so it's all good

 

[eternaldeath]

gonna ctb tonight. i'm trying partial hanging and probably just take whatever's left of my antidepressants just because. gonna update later when i'm actually doing it. i'm scared but i hope it works :(

goodbye, im sorry the world is like this : (

goodbye, im sorry the world is like this : (

this was before I saw the update ermmmm

 

[m7374838]

hhh i think i should do it now but i'm scared ashdfhdkfhekfhrhrhfhfjf realistically i know there's nothing holding me back now but still ughhh :((((((( i need to do it before i would normally wake up so i only have like 4-5 hours left adjfjdjdjf i wish i could have smth to drink

 

[WildAtHeart]

you good, if you want to dm me feel free

 

[m7374838]

i'm still here somehow because i fell asleep i think i'm doing it ummm now probablt k dotn know they called my dchool and my therapist but my mom doesn't care she just doesn't wanna get in trouble eith thr police so 'm jsir gonna put my furnteinre against my door and then do it i'm tired wish me luck please
ok doing it now goodbye

 

[Goosechan]

but at least i'll be able to force myself.

You will never have to force yourself! If this is what you want then I hope it will be peaceful. But know that you can always come back from your decision and come back here. We relate to your struggles, even if they aren't alike and SaSu won't judge you whether you CTB or not and whether you succeed or not.
I just want you to feel less alone!

 

[m7374838]

how the fuck do you tie a slip knot dude and why do people keep tryna call my phone and my mom this is so stupud
ok i finally convinced my friend that i'm not gonna kms so she probably won't call my mom again so no one will bother me PROBABLY HOPEFULLY idfk i swear if someone interrupts dhdgfgdgrhhrhdhhd ok bye