I'm not keen on being here myself. I could ctb anytime but I do worry about consequences. Say life is not all there is, perhaps we agreed to come here on some deep level. We make the irreversible decision to ctb and awake from this illusion of reality to find that we had just a certain amount of years here to just survive and the mission was complete. Perhaps we get reincarnated, imagine being reborn in some shithole in Africa or the slums of South America. The afterlife could be worse than this, remember you will be joining the beings that set this world up. These assholes watch the carnage and suffering and do fuck all, maybe even think things are going well. Sometimes it better the Devil you know.