Buying nembutal from DNM

[brokenboy]

Im absolutely miserable I cry almost all day every day. Ive exhausted every single rescource available to me. I tried my hardest to feel better for the past two years but nothing ever works out. I dont have anybody to confide in and im sooooo lonely. My 20th birthdays coming up and I just want to end it all. Im so scared to die and theres so many cool things I wanted to while im still alive but I know Ill never be able to. Im soooo fucking worthless and such a waste of life I wish people knew how I felt and would actually give a shit. I found a vendor selling nembutal on Bohemia and I think I am going to save up and buy it since I heard thats a really peaceful way to ctb. Im just hiping that someone here can maybe give me the courage to go through with it so I can do the world a favor and put myself out of my misery.

 

[CursedReality88]

I dont have anybody to confide in and im sooooo lonely. My 20th birthdays coming up and I just want to end it all. Im so scared to die and theres so many cool things I wanted to while im still alive but I know Ill never be able to. Im soooo fucking worthless and such a waste of life I wish people knew how I felt and would actually give a shit.

No one can tell you they know exactly how you feel. It's your experience, but I was extremely lonely too. Like painfully lonely to the point where I get jealous when I see people stand around and chitchatting. I also know how you feel about being worthless. My dad would say in his native language "you are useless, you don't even know how to be human." Not just once either. That shit is traumatizing. So I get it. It's hard. It's not impossible though. You see it's a suicide forum and most people are going to be agree with you that life is hopeless, I understand but I see that you do want to try.
You said here that there are a lot of things you want to do in life. That's a good sign! You want to live. Cherish that thought and use it as fuel. Fuck your negative thoughts. Fuck other people who think you are worthless including yourself. I don't know what problems you are dealing with, if it's financially you can do it. Get a job and stick to it. Remember the things you want to do, and your job is just a way to get there. Loneliness sucks but it doesn't have to be permanent. You can meet new people at your job or at a gym. Life's hard, but death is inevitable. That's one thing we all have in common, we are all going to die one day. So don't stress it, don't rush it if you know there is something out there for you.
And big advice. If you do know someone who is selling N and it's legit, buy it. Keep it in a dry and cool place. It can be stored for over 5 years. Good to have a backup plan. Best of luck bro. Oh and happy early birthday

 

[Vizzy]

Im absolutely miserable I cry almost all day every day. Ive exhausted every single rescource available to me. I tried my hardest to feel better for the past two years but nothing ever works out. I dont have anybody to confide in and im sooooo lonely. My 20th birthdays coming up and I just want to end it all. Im so scared to die and theres so many cool things I wanted to while im still alive but I know Ill never be able to. Im soooo fucking worthless and such a waste of life I wish people knew how I felt and would actually give a shit. I found a vendor selling nembutal on Bohemia and I think I am going to save up and buy it since I heard thats a really peaceful way to ctb. Im just hiping that someone here can maybe give me the courage to go through with it so I can do the world a favor and put myself out of my misery.

Are you from Bohemia?

If not it is most probably a scam, no one selling it online

 

[Dot]

Im absolutely miserable I cry almost all day every day. Ive exhausted every single rescource available to me. I tried my hardest to feel better for the past two years but nothing ever works out. I dont have anybody to confide in and im sooooo lonely. My 20th birthdays coming up and I just want to end it all. Im so scared to die and theres so many cool things I wanted to while im still alive but I know Ill never be able to. Im soooo fucking worthless and such a waste of life I wish people knew how I felt and would actually give a shit. I found a vendor selling nembutal on Bohemia and I think I am going to save up and buy it since I heard thats a really peaceful way to ctb. Im just hiping that someone here can maybe give me the courage to go through with it so I can do the world a favor and put myself out of my misery.

Lke Vzzy sd -- 99.99% = wll b scam

Also -- ppl wll nt encourge u 2 ctb in n.e way as doin tht = agnst rules

Srry tht u r suffrng s/ mch

 

[FuneralCry]

If you are actually able to get Nembutal then you are very fortunate, but there are lots of N scams going around, it seems very difficult to get N now, of course it sounds like the best method and I hate how it's not easily available. But anyway it does sound really tiring what you are going through and it's certainly understandable wishing to be free from all the suffering, I wish you the best.

 

[The anhedonic one]

Only guaranteed way to buy N is by going to Tijuana In Mexico.
Forget anything you see on a website.
It will most definitely be a scam.

 

[woh6]

This site is not for encouraging ctb. It seems like you aren't ready yet, as part of you still wants to live, and no one here can change that. Only make such a decision if you're 100% sure. I'm sorry for whatever you have and are going through to reach this point. Be careful of N scams, online there isn't any available.

 

[Sweet Tart]

No one can tell you they know exactly how you feel. It's your experience, but I was extremely lonely too. Like painfully lonely to the point where I get jealous when I see people stand around and chitchatting. I also know how you feel about being worthless. My dad would say in his native language "you are useless, you don't even know how to be human." Not just once either. That shit is traumatizing. So I get it. It's hard. It's not impossible though. You see it's a suicide forum and most people are going to be agree with you that life is hopeless, I understand but I see that you do want to try.
You said here that there are a lot of things you want to do in life. That's a good sign! You want to live. Cherish that thought and use it as fuel. Fuck your negative thoughts. Fuck other people who think you are worthless including yourself. I don't know what problems you are dealing with, if it's financially you can do it. Get a job and stick to it. Remember the things you want to do, and your job is just a way to get there. Loneliness sucks but it doesn't have to be permanent. You can meet new people at your job or at a gym. Life's hard, but death is inevitable. That's one thing we all have in common, we are all going to die one day. So don't stress it, don't rush it if you know there is something out there for you.
And big advice. If you do know someone who is selling N and it's legit, buy it. Keep it in a dry and cool place. It can be stored for over 5 years. Good to have a backup plan. Best of luck bro. Oh and happy early birthday

This is so beautifully said.

@brokenboy , if there are things that you think could be cool to do, I hope you can try and do them. I've learned that the idea that you are useless often comes from other people. I believed it too and only in middle age am I realizing that I learned it from my mom, who I always (mistakenly) trusted. It never had anything to do with me. I'm so sorry you feel alone and are feeling bad about yourself.

Why not experiment with the things that interest you? And when you feel alone, I hope you keep sharing here or in any online forums (or elsewhere, obv) that feel right to you. Feeling lonely and depressed sucks, but imo, it can still be very meaningful to process it with people who are in the same boat.

 

[raspberryred]

Only guaranteed way to buy N is by going to Tijuana In Mexico.
Forget anything you see on a website.
It will most definitely be a scam.

Animal or human N?

 

[The anhedonic one]

Animal or human N?

It's all the same thing: for both animals and humans.

 

[brokenboy]

Are you from Bohemia?

If not it is most probably a scam, no one selling it online

Yeah your probly right I just dont know else do do at this point :( I mean the guys reviews were good so I might just ask if I could purchase a sample so I dont loose much if it turns out to be fake.

 

[Vizzy]

Yeah your probly right I just dont know else do do at this point :( I mean the guys reviews were good so I might just ask if I could purchase a sample so I dont loose much if it turns out to be fake.

How you will test the sample?

 

[brokenboy]

How you will test the sample?

I usually mail my stuff to a lab canada since drugs are decriminalized up there. Its an anonomys service that has been really helpfull to me in the past.

This site is not for encouraging ctb. It seems like you aren't ready yet, as part of you still wants to live, and no one here can change that. Only make such a decision if you're 100% sure. I'm sorry for whatever you have and are going through to reach this point. Be careful of N scams, online there isn't any available.

Im sorry for making that statement in my post I am new hear and didnt mean to violate the rules so I apologize. And your absolutely right there is part of me that wants to keep going Its just the older I get the more pain I go through and the more hopeless I feel. I just dont want to be a burden on anybody anymore. Anyway thanks 4 ur support! And ill be sure to watch for scammers.

 

[brokenboy]

Lke Vzzy sd -- 99.99% = wll b scam

Also -- ppl wll nt encourge u 2 ctb in n.e way as doin tht = agnst rules

Srry tht u r suffrng s/ mch

I apologize for saying that I didnt mean to offend anyone I just scared to die alone, but I really do appreciate your concern :)

If you are actually able to get Nembutal then you are very fortunate, but there are lots of N scams going around, it seems very difficult to get N now, of course it sounds like the best method and I hate how it's not easily available. But anyway it does sound really tiring what you are going through and it's certainly understandable wishing to be free from all the suffering, I wish you the best.

Thank you so much for understanding. Its probly against the rules to souce anything here but if does turn out to be legit I really wish I could share who I got it from because like you said it is probly the most painless way to go and I know it could help a lot of people who feel ready to ctb and just want to do so peacefully.

 

[Vizzy]

I apologize for saying that I didnt mean to offend anyone I just scared to die alone, but I really do appreciate your concern :)

Thank you so much for understanding. Its probly against the rules to souce anything here but if does turn out to be legit I really wish I could share who I got it from because like you said it is probly the most painless way to go and I know it could help a lot of people who feel ready to ctb and just want to do so peacefully.

You can share the source in the private message to the people who are asking you but you can't post it in the comments

Make sure the source is not scam before you share to others

 

[brokenboy]

No one can tell you they know exactly how you feel. It's your experience, but I was extremely lonely too. Like painfully lonely to the point where I get jealous when I see people stand around and chitchatting. I also know how you feel about being worthless. My dad would say in his native language "you are useless, you don't even know how to be human." Not just once either. That shit is traumatizing. So I get it. It's hard. It's not impossible though. You see it's a suicide forum and most people are going to be agree with you that life is hopeless, I understand but I see that you do want to try.
You said here that there are a lot of things you want to do in life. That's a good sign! You want to live. Cherish that thought and use it as fuel. Fuck your negative thoughts. Fuck other people who think you are worthless including yourself. I don't know what problems you are dealing with, if it's financially you can do it. Get a job and stick to it. Remember the things you want to do, and your job is just a way to get there. Loneliness sucks but it doesn't have to be permanent. You can meet new people at your job or at a gym. Life's hard, but death is inevitable. That's one thing we all have in common, we are all going to die one day. So don't stress it, don't rush it if you know there is something out there for you.
And big advice. If you do know someone who is selling N and it's legit, buy it. Keep it in a dry and cool place. It can be stored for over 5 years. Good to have a backup plan. Best of luck bro. Oh and happy early birthday

This is so beautifully said.

@brokenboy , if there are things that you think could be cool to do, I hope you can try and do them. I've learned that the idea that you are useless often comes from other people. I believed it too and only in middle age am I realizing that I learned it from my mom, who I always (mistakenly) trusted. It never had anything to do with me. I'm so sorry you feel alone and are feeling bad about yourself.

Why not experiment with the things that interest you? And when you feel alone, I hope you keep sharing here or in any online forums (or elsewhere, obv) that feel right to you. Feeling lonely and depressed sucks, but imo, it can still be very meaningful to process it with people who are in the same boat.

I cant even begin to tell you how meaningfull this was to me!! Your such a sweet person and im sorry you had to endure all those terrible thing that made you feel the way I do. No one should have to go through this. I can relate to so much of what you said on a personal level. I oftentimes find myself getting jealous when I see others having fun with their frinds and getting in relationships too. I constantly have this deep feeling of emptiness that stems from my childhood which ive constantly been trying to fill throughout my entire adulthood. I just keep running into problems such and constant police harassment and exploitation as well as health issue and addiction which make me feel helpless like the world is against me. I also take loss really hard which is what contributes to my depression. Every girl I i start to love and get attached to just turns out to be so cruel and I lost my dog a little over a year ago who I still think about every day. My fear of loss just gives me anxiety about losing more and more the older I get. I just want want to be a constant burden anymore and I just want the pain to end im just so scared of life as much as I am of death. I just want there to be more love in the world. Anyway your reply really helped to give hope and I promise to keep trying at least for the next couple months while I try and obtain N to see if I can find my passion for life again. Thank you for the early birthday wishes and best of luck to you too :)