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vanillamilkshakes

vanillamilkshakes

Aspiring Corpse
Aug 26, 2024
494
I fall into a deep depression around the winter months each year, guaranteed. However, during those summer months, I still have such an incredible disinterest in life. I suppose it's difficult coming out of a depression, you tend to feel hopeful that your life will suddenly improve significantly, that all the pain you went through amounts to something. And as the months pass, I still can't feel satisfied. I've spent so long in those depressive states, it seems as if the rest of the world has passed me by, deserting me. And I seem to never be able to catch up, before burning out and falling back into my depression.

That's my cycle: feel hopeless, begin to feel slightly hopeful, then burn out, repeat.
 
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vira

vira

all my life is on me now
Apr 28, 2025
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That's my cycle: feel hopeless, begin to feel slightly hopeful, then burn out, repeat.
i feel this too. my depression gets worse during winters, whre i cling onto anyone and anything for support and gain a parasocial relationship with them. during the summer i have no will to live whatsoever, no energy, no life in me. in general it just seems to be a constant repeat no matter how many antidepressants my dude puts me on. im so sick of living like this, having to work, live a functional life, sounds like im complaining but i cant bare to live like this anymore. zero energy all the time. i hope this problem eases a bit for you the coming months, i hate seeing people struggle being lethargic all the time like me.
 
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microwaved_dawg

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Nov 22, 2024
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That's why the song "Black Hole Sun" by Soundgarden is so relatable. You SHOULD be feeling better, but you aren't. Everyone is smiling, birds are chirping and the sun, THE DAMN SUN that is warming everyone else, seems to scorch you. Just makes you feel so out of place.
i feel this too. my depression gets worse during winters, whre i cling onto anyone and anything for support and gain a parasocial relationship with them. during the summer i have no will to live whatsoever, no energy, no life in me. in general it just seems to be a constant repeat no matter how many antidepressants my dude puts me on. im so sick of living like this, having to work, live a functional life, sounds like im complaining but i cant bare to live like this anymore. zero energy all the time. i hope this problem eases a bit for you the coming months, i hate seeing people struggle being lethargic all the time like me.
Sucks to hear that, I also struggle a lot with lethargy and can't seem to do anything to fix it, do you happen to have any tips?. Also, no need to be parasocial with me, my DMs are always open if you need anything <3.
 
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