Bucket list

[WaitingForTheBus]

So, many people have a bucket list. I don't necessarily have a list as such, it was really just one thing. That was to spend one last day with the love of my life. It could have been my kids I suppose, honestly though, they fly the coop and live their own lives and you see less and less of them. Doesn't mean my love for them diminishes, it's just that the only person that will be there till the end (we hope), is our partner.

So, I just spent an amazing 22 hours with my girl. Fuck I love her. She seems to have me on a string though. When I am with her, I feel as though I am drowning in love, then after a while, she lets go and I start to float away and I feel as though I am actually drowning, struggling to keep my head above water. This seems to be a constant loop that I can't escape.

So today got me thinking, did I just complete my bucket list? Is now the perfect time for me to ctb as there is nothing else on my list and adding to it is just delaying the inevitable?

So, is there anything you would really like to do before you ctb? (Sorry if this has been asked before)

 

[Norest4thewicked]

Tell the girl I recently lost just how much she meant to me, and to wish her every happiness, fuck, she deserves it putting up with my shit for three years. I'd like to take my closest friend out for one more booze fuelled night. One for the road I suppose

 

[WaitingForTheBus]

Tell the girl I recently lost just how much she meant to me, and to wish her every happiness, fuck, she deserves it putting up with my shit for three years. I'd like to take my closest friend out for one more booze fuelled night. One for the road I suppose

Then I say do it mate. Tell her how you feel and enjoy that night out with your best friend. Don't take it to the grave. Live a life with no regrets.

 

[okyeah]

Well, unfortunately no. Part of the reason I want to kill myself - I have no desire to do anything besides fuck I guess. The only thing I want is maybe to go to a brothel in Las Vegas. Otherwise I have no curiosity about anything this shit world has to offer. I will likely spend my last moments eating fried chicken and pounding alcohol alone.

 

[nuclearsnake]

I wanted to transition but due to retarded country gatekeeping that's not going to happen anytime soon (or maybe at all because being a crazy person makes it even more difficult). I wanted to read a few books so I can die a scholar but my attention span isn't the best right now and honestly, all these good looking, functional characters just depress me even more. I wanted to visit another country but I don't have the money or the courage. I wanted to experience a big discovery related to space or the cosmos but my patience has left me.

 

[Circles]

Most of my desires are unrealistic. It's hard to want something you never had.

 

[Trashcan]

I don't have a bucket list, either. I used to, but realized it's going to be hard to complete it before I ctb and it won't matter when I'm dead.

 

[worldexploder]

No. I'd be too focused on CTB to do anything else

 

[OkTotti]

No bucket list for me.. afraid it may change my outlook and deceive myself that life is worth living. I know it's not. I want to get it over with

 

[Help_Me]

Nothing really special. This world will forget me soon. Probably send a letter to my gf and tell her she was literally everything for me, cause I had no other purposes in life.

 

[VincentValentine]

The only thing I want is maybe to go to a brothel in Las Vegas.

The ones in Nevada are overpriced, the women aren't nice, and it's bad service. Go to the ones in Brazil or Tijuana.

 

[Paulsmith]

I did have a couple of things on a bucket list.

1. Walk outside in public for a few seconds naked. - which I did a few months ago

2. Can't remember what it was

 

[longingforrelease]

You know I think I was fortunate to have had such a rich and fulfilling life, which lasted for a good while, that I think much of the normal bucket things have been accomplished. I've travelled the world (seen much of Africa, spent a year in France, several trips to Europe, now live in S.E. Asia, etc.), I was in the Army for a few years and jumped out of planes so that sort of thing is crossed off. In my younger more attractive years I had a good healthy sex life. And when I went all hypersexual with bipolar I had some crazy ass sexual experiences so that sort of thing is crossed off. In my professional life i had some good successes like publishing a book so the professional things are done. I can't seem to think of anything but one: I would give anything to see my young daughter one more time. I would give anything to have her in my presence for even just a few days to hear her laugh, to tickle her back as she used to ask me to do every night at bed time, to hold her in my arms and tell her how much I love her. Yes. That is the whole of my bucket list.

 

[Letting Go]

The ones in Nevada are overpriced, the women aren't nice, and it's bad service.

I can attest to this. In addition to what you wrote, having sex with a condom on is such a disappointing experience that I actually prefer masturbating.

This leads me to my #1 bucket list item. I want to have unprotected sex with a disease-free woman for once in my life. Getting to cum inside a woman's vagina one goddamn time before I die shouldn't be too much to ask for. I've already waited 36, going on 37 years and it's driving me insane! Some kids 1/3 my age have already experienced this for christ's sake while I can't even get a woman to LOOK at me without revealing her disgust!

 

[longingforrelease]

I can attest to this. In addition to what you wrote, having sex with a condom on is such a disappointing experience that I actually prefer masturbating.

This leads me to my #1 bucket list item. I want to have unprotected sex with a disease-free woman for once in my life. Getting to cum inside a woman's vagina one goddamn time before I die shouldn't be too much to ask for. I've already waited 36, going on 37 years and it's driving me insane! Some kids 1/3 my age have already experienced this for christ's sake!

I hope it happens for you!

 

[Xerxes]

Bucket lists only delay the inevitable.

 

[Schopenhauer]

The ones in Nevada are overpriced, the women aren't nice, and it's bad service. Go to the ones in Brazil or Tijuana.

I hate my country, but we do have good hookers here, for a fair price. If you're a foreigner, they'll treat you like a king.

I'm still deciding whether I'll get a high-class escort next Wednesday. It'll be my last chance...

 

[Ghab]

I just wanted to point out, I'm assuming your profile pic is a picture of you in real life I highly suggest you pull it down and use a different photo. You never know who could be using this website, including law enforcement and even friends or family. your posts could get screenshot and end up all around online, don't use pics with your face.

 

[NewDelhiGuy]

I can attest to this. In addition to what you wrote, having sex with a condom on is such a disappointing experience that I actually prefer masturbating.

This leads me to my #1 bucket list item. I want to have unprotected sex with a disease-free woman for once in my life. Getting to cum inside a woman's vagina one goddamn time before I die shouldn't be too much to ask for. I've already waited 36, going on 37 years and it's driving me insane! Some kids 1/3 my age have already experienced this for christ's sake while I can't even get a woman to LOOK at me without revealing her disgust!

Sex is something at the core of a man. Though I never stumbled upon a post by a woman longing to have sex before ctb.

 

[longingforrelease]

Sex is something at the core of a man. Though I never stumbled upon a post by a woman longing to have sex before ctb.

that's an interesting observation

 

[Throwaway563078]

Maybe to try drugs, specially shrooms.I want my perception altered for a bit even if it's drug induced. But I can't even do that

 

[Taylored]

I really only desire for freedom and being alone even if It's right before CTB.

 

[sadak_the_wanderer]

Most people treat a bucket list as a set of experiences. I do not think I can take these experiences with me, as I do not believe in an afterlife. So, trips, shows, and the like are not too important to me. Soon, I hope, I will no longer be in a position to recall these experiences or note the lack of them, as I will not exist. Rather, I have focused on what I want to do for the people who will be left behind.

This is largely a matter of cleaning up after myself, divesting myself of possessions without raising suspicion, and generally making my passing as painless for others as I can manage.

 

[longingforrelease]

Most people treat a bucket list as a set of experiences. I do not think I can take these experiences with me, as I do not believe in an afterlife. So, trips, shows, and the like are not too important to me. Soon, I hope, I will no longer be in a position to recall these experiences or note the lack of them, as I will not exist. Rather, I have focused on what I want to do for the people who will be left behind.

This is largely a matter of cleaning up after myself, divesting myself of possessions without raising suspicion, and generally making my passing as painless for others as I can manage.

nice

 

[hikikomori]

sleep/cuddle next to someone?
and die with slit wrists in a tub still mad it didnt work it was so peacfull