Caterpillar
Slick n' Slim
- Aug 1, 2022
- 21
Or rather breaking. Do any of you love someone, but hold incredible feelings of pain even if that person is not abusive? I can't make heads or tails of my BPD, Depression, other trauma related logic, and my relationship issues. My heart is breaking, i hoped my life would have been a lot more satisfying after I left my abusive home and got into what i desired and who i desired. But Im beggining to think that i had less pain when alone, which is horrible, because i really wanted to put him into my future. I was able to enjoy the people that i enjoy from a distance thinking I'm making no difference on other's lives. Its a sad place, maybe but it's also a place where you can't disappoint or hurt anyone. Now, it's pain pain pain. I'd rather be dead than have to face the agony. I feel desperate. And alone. So alone. Why can I feel again????? Why can't I just be in love in peace??????