Centerism
Love is my final option
- Aug 25, 2019
- 233
Hey,
I recently lost my partner to a brutal overdose. I am lost without him. I am incapable of reassuring myself that life goes on. I don't want to try and ctb again and fail, again. I'm scared of ending back up in a psych ward. That kills me more than anything. They try and try to convince you not to leave this plane by your own hand but it makes me want to slap them and convince them that this is mercy. Something I feel will better me.
I am an overall loving person and wish no ill will on anyone. I wish only for those around me to be the best that suits them. And I always support anyone in their best decisions. It's not hard for me to love or experience love. But I am lost without the love of my life. He will always be with me.
I'm thinking of tonight being the night. But I don't know a peaceful, painless way to go. I hope I figure something out.
Let me know what your think. Thanks. I love you all.
I recently lost my partner to a brutal overdose. I am lost without him. I am incapable of reassuring myself that life goes on. I don't want to try and ctb again and fail, again. I'm scared of ending back up in a psych ward. That kills me more than anything. They try and try to convince you not to leave this plane by your own hand but it makes me want to slap them and convince them that this is mercy. Something I feel will better me.
I am an overall loving person and wish no ill will on anyone. I wish only for those around me to be the best that suits them. And I always support anyone in their best decisions. It's not hard for me to love or experience love. But I am lost without the love of my life. He will always be with me.
I'm thinking of tonight being the night. But I don't know a peaceful, painless way to go. I hope I figure something out.
Let me know what your think. Thanks. I love you all.