Brink of Something

[melancholymallory03]

I'm on the brink of something

To much brain fog recently to contribute or ad much to here

Don't feel good at all
Days are blurring together
Very very sad
Feeling existential , horrible
Waiting for SN
Loose ends to tie
Guilt from my family
To much guilt from everything
Want to dissapear
Don't know what to do
So sad
Not feeling good at all
I think everything must be fine though I will just listen to music as always and rest,

Thoughts are racing
Don't feel good , too much guilt

Want to isolate myself but can't
Family members dragging me through existence
Existing is so tiring and so awful for me recently


I just can't comprehend existence

Been trying to feel grateful and express gratitude feel gratefulness for my life


Nothing works really long term

Feeling horrible I wanna hurt myself or cut my ankles I don't feel good at all
I want to feel better but I don't know how
my eyes hurt from trying not to cry and it's starting to give me a headache behind my eyes

Want it all to stop so badly
Feel so guilty , and horrible
Can't think properly , eating too much or too little

War getting to me

Can't handle this life

I need go cut myself and sleep
I hate this version of my self
Life is scary
Hate things nos
Feeling black
Sad
PInfulb
Don't know why life is like this
Don't understand if humans are made for this

Can't. Handle this

 

[FuneralCry]

That must be really dreadful what you are going through, I understand why you'd feel so tired, it's such an cruel existence where people suffer so unbearably. But anyway best wishes, I hope that you eventually find peace from your suffering.