Ambivalent1
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- Apr 17, 2023
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ChildrensITV
Arcanist
- Mar 14, 2023
- 455
Jumped
That is my best guess. It's a brutal way to go. I doubt anyone here has actually jumped. I think I read on r/suicidewatch (surprisingly), that one woman did and is now disabled.
Ambivalent1
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StolenLife
Warlock
- Sep 19, 2022
- 740
I tried jumping but SI was too strong. My legs were shaking so much that I couldn't get over the railing. Also I wanted to land directly on water and it was dark so I couldn't see where the shore ended and the sea begun. Then my Si kicked in and I started wandering what if I failed and became disabled? I quit my attempt then and there but unfortunately someone saw me and told the police so I was involuntarily hospitalised.
ChildrensITV
Arcanist
- Mar 14, 2023
- 455
I can't remember the distance but it was enough almost to lose her a leg and have various pins and bolts in her spine and shit. It's an awful way to go, especially if you fail. I don't get how people can find this site but still opt for the brutalest methods out there - jumping and trains.
Maybe if you live in Saudi Arabia and can't access other ways, sure.
Ambivalent1
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Is it awful if it's high enough? I read you die upon landing. The idea of drinking poison and waiting to die seems unbearable.
In Saudi Arabia you just need to make fun of the prophet and they will cut your head off.
I almost jumped off a cliff, but my SI ended up being too strong.
I had traveled well over 24 hours and even had to hike to get to the spot where I had chosen to do it. But once I got to the spot, I just couldn't jump. I think the largest factor in me not jumping was seeing the couple thousand foot drop below me, knowing I would've been in the air for a couple seconds before finally hitting the bottom. That that would have been my final moments. Something about it, I just couldn't bring myself to doing. I was even sitting down on the edge with one of my legs hanging off of it.
I had traveled well over 24 hours and even had to hike to get to the spot where I had chosen to do it. But once I got to the spot, I just couldn't jump. I think the largest factor in me not jumping was seeing the couple thousand foot drop below me, knowing I would've been in the air for a couple seconds before finally hitting the bottom. That that would have been my final moments. Something about it, I just couldn't bring myself to doing. I was even sitting down on the edge with one of my legs hanging off of it.
Ambivalent1
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- Apr 17, 2023
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How are other people able to do it? Could you have done it if you brought alcohol?
I'm not entirely sure, but I imagine having alcohol and being in a certain mindset would probably allow yourself to overcome your preservation instinct.
Toobrokentofix
Experienced
- Jul 7, 2020
- 244
I have lorazepam, zopiclone, a joint and some alcohol in my boot all ready to help me overcome si. However I'm not stuck back ina hospital waiting for a psych ward bed to become available. Can't get to my car let alone the bridge. Wad in the mindset the other night. Got in cab but hospital staff ran out n stopped the cab. Now I'm not even aloud to go for a shit unsupervised
unnormal9
SOLDIER T.
- Apr 12, 2023
- 1,139
I could not bring myself to do it because my SI desires a peaceful exit. It only occurs with methods that are too painful, this includes jumping.
