Venting breakup

[bpdbunnygirl]

broke up with my bf a couple days ago. used alcohol to numb the pain. now I'm out and feel more suicidal than ever. I have no idea what to even do with myself. I don't know how to cope. I think I'm just gonna take extra melatonin so I don't have to deal with this bs. I can just sleep everything away. I don't know what to do with myself. he has been my entire life for over a year. I don't know how to function and live without him.

 

[girlwithflaxenhair0]

I'm really sorry :(

 

[Ineedthis]

That sounds tough, I'm sorry to hear that.

 

[MyChoiceAlone]

errr ever think how big the world is? that means there are a lot of men/women.

 

[F&Inside]

Hi bpdbunnygirl.
A breakup can be one of the most painful things. I don't know if you've experienced a breakup before.
But we have to accept it and move forward.
Maybe that person wasn't the right one. Of course I wouldn't recommend taking refuge in alcohol.

Well I hope you feel better soon.

 

[Mene Tame]

I cant really relate unfortunately I've never had anyone by my side

 

[haibane]

Im so sorry

 

[nessun_nome]

broke up with my bf a couple days ago. used alcohol to numb the pain. now I'm out and feel more suicidal than ever. I have no idea what to even do with myself. I don't know how to cope. I think I'm just gonna take extra melatonin so I don't have to deal with this bs. I can just sleep everything away. I don't know what to do with myself. he has been my entire life for over a year. I don't know how to function and live without him.

This is an awful experience and one of the most unpleasant things you can experience.

For me, I discovered that time does heal but it takes a while. In the meantime, do what your body needs, sleep etc.

I also look around and say to myself that millions have overcome this so you can too.

Take it easy and look after your needs. Be careful with the alcohol though.

 

[FuneralCry]

It must be painful and hard to deal with what you are going through, I personally just don't believe that other people can be relied on after all. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[Mene Tame]

Im so sorry

Wish I had a ctb partner

 

[claraisnotcarol]

I'm so sorry, as a bpd sister I really feel you. seriously. it was like having your wound.
I've been lately coping with the same methods since my ex blocked me and I even have a bf now, can you imagine? .
I'm with you, try to stay alone the less time possible and surround yourself with friends.
also, get rid of everything that reminds you of him

 

[haibane]

Wish I had a ctb partner

Me too fr

 

[Mene Tame]

Me too fr

Finding one is hard tho

 

[haibane]

Finding one is hard tho

Definitely, and i want to know a bit the person with who i will do it too. So its even harder haha

 

[Mene Tame]

Definitely, and i want to know a bit the person with who i will do it too. So its even harder haha

Nobody wants to kill themselves with me, i wish it was some kind of romantic suicide
Like a couple committing suicide like in the Japanese culture

 

[cosnidering_ctb]

Sorry to hear that. But I hope this will get better for you.
How old are you?

 

[Mene Tame]

Sorry to hear that. But I hope this will get better for you.
How old are you?

Im 18

 

[cosnidering_ctb]

Should be getting better, eventually. At 18 everything is felt extremely strongly. I'd wait a bit before deciding there.

 

[claraisnotcarol]

Nobody wants to kill themselves with me, i wish it was some kind of romantic suicide
Like a couple committing suicide like in the Japanese culture

and it's also like, what if the other person backs up at the last minute? idk, the idea is so romantic, but so complicated

 

[Mrpickles]

Sorry to hear, breakups are very difficult. I've had my fair share of them. Almost always lead to wanting to CTB. However, thinking back, I see how it would have been a mistake. Because none of them were worth it. All it would accomplish is they would have felt bad for a few weeks and just moved on with their life. You will just be an afterthought. It's your life, your choice, I hope you find peace and happiness.

 

[avaruus]

I'm sorry, but i guess that's for the better, as if i remember correctly, your bf wasn't exactly the healthiest partner.
But i understand your pain :)