ms_beaverhousen
-terminally sad-
- Mar 14, 2024
- 1,271
I'm unraveling, and getting more desperate. I barely have transportation to get to the hotel. Don't have enough money for a gun, and may not even pass the background check because of an old institutionalization like 10 yrs ago. Too reta**ed to figure out SN and nitazenes and sources... Can't pull off a hanging, nfw.
There's one hotel that's high enough though. If I got a room, would a hammer be able to break the window do you think??? or if I bought one of those things that breaks a car window?? I don't have much money for supplies, and can't afford to buy something that won't get me to ctb mind you. Do you think I'd be heard, reported, and stopped before the window was broken? I have no experience with construction durability. They had a rooftop suicide but now there's a tall bar-thing to climb over and I'm short af. Would have to stand on a chair and can't tell if those are chained down. Plus there'd be people who could stop me. I may never get the opportunity as it's the most expensive hotel in the city so it's always got a full setting up there. (It's a rooftop bar.) Plus there's a dress code.
I considered this option back when I lived in the city, but got distracted by taking care of stray cats literally having babies on my balcony... and dating a douche. Then I had to move to an isolated hellhole... and THEN lost the creepy person willing to help me with ctb because I waited too long I guess.
Thanks for the input :)
P.S. Where is that "angel of mercy death" lady from Law & Order: SVU who is deaf (real deaf actress) and helps people ctb when you need her???
There's one hotel that's high enough though. If I got a room, would a hammer be able to break the window do you think??? or if I bought one of those things that breaks a car window?? I don't have much money for supplies, and can't afford to buy something that won't get me to ctb mind you. Do you think I'd be heard, reported, and stopped before the window was broken? I have no experience with construction durability. They had a rooftop suicide but now there's a tall bar-thing to climb over and I'm short af. Would have to stand on a chair and can't tell if those are chained down. Plus there'd be people who could stop me. I may never get the opportunity as it's the most expensive hotel in the city so it's always got a full setting up there. (It's a rooftop bar.) Plus there's a dress code.
I considered this option back when I lived in the city, but got distracted by taking care of stray cats literally having babies on my balcony... and dating a douche. Then I had to move to an isolated hellhole... and THEN lost the creepy person willing to help me with ctb because I waited too long I guess.
Thanks for the input :)
P.S. Where is that "angel of mercy death" lady from Law & Order: SVU who is deaf (real deaf actress) and helps people ctb when you need her???
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