Discussion Breakdown of reasons why you are suicidal (upgraded post) ?

[epic]

Curisous to know the breakdown of reasons people on this forum wish to CTB . The total can cross 100% .
Please maintain a descending % order so it is easier to read.

Dummy example:

Mental illness - 60%
Romantic relationship gone wrong - 30%
Financial hardship- 25%
Physical health problem- 5%

Total- 120%

Feel free to add more reasons other than the ones mentioned above.

 

[uletayu]

Depression: 70%
No friends: 10%
School: 15%
Tired of living: 5%

 

[epic]

I had made a similar post previously but the total could only be 100% . I realized people had deep problems in each category and it can make the total cross 100% .
Physical health problem- 95%
Loneliness - 10%
Lack of a romantic relationship - 10%
Aging - 5%

Total - 120%

 

[FuneralCry]

For me, it would be life 100%. I would always be suicidal as long as I exist here no matter what and I see life in itself as being the true problem, life is what makes me want to die and my desire to exit this world is just an logical response to existing here and having awareness that existence isn't worth enduring. All of the suffering that humans are so cruelly burdened with is just an unfortunate consequence of being forced into existence in a world where chance so cruelly determines everything.

But to me, it seems like this question only applies to those who want to die because of specific problems in life and would otherwise want to delay their inevitable fate if those things were removed. Explaning why I want to die could never be as straightforward as listing specific issues that I have with life with the percentage of how much I'm affected by it.

 

[koddeee]

Breakdown of romantic relationship/marriage - 35%
Mental illness (Bipolar, Depression, PTSD) - 30%
Lonely - 25%
Just tired -10%

 

[sugarmagnolia]

Broken family relationships - 60-75%
Depression - 15%
Physical / Emotional abuse - 10%

 

[lastwords.com]

Excessive drug abuse for far too long with heavy sleep deprivation and wrecked mental wellbeing - 50%
Destroyed relationships friends/family - 20%
Devastating financial damage - 20%
Loneliness - 30%

 

[wiltingorchid]

bpd: 40%
lack of freedom in this world: 30%
addiction: 30%

 

[Chocoholic]

Mental health(Depression, PTSD): 50
Loneliness: 20
Losing love I wanted so much: 30

 

[mylifeasadog]

80% depression, 20% loneliness

 

[Octavia]

Progenitors: ~27%

First puberty: ~23%

Regrets about the past: ~10%

Bad things happening to other people: ~22%

Climate change: ~18%

Edit: That is assuming that I can only retire once, I am depressed enough to end myself three times over at least if that was possible. Hence my lack of optimism about my shrinks and meds yielding any results.

 

[sosotired]

major depression : 85%
Loneliness : 15%

 

[downndone2]

Heartbreak 40%
Financial loss 30%
Mental/physical issues 10%
Loneliness/isolation 20%

 

[unnormal9]

Mental Strain 45%
Physical/Mental Fatigue 5%
Financial burden 50%

 

[NoLightRemains]

45% mental health (trauma, depression, etc.)
35% tired of life, society, humans
20% physical health

Hard to say, it's all so interconnected. But there's enough unfixable problems there that I am gaining confidence for CTB.

 

[molassesmorasses]

80% mental illness and its effects on others/myself (ED, depression, anxiety, PTSD)
15% sleep problems (nightmares, anxiety)
15% physical health
15% the world is dying, what isn't dead yet is cruel

Hard to summarize. I'm an animal, I am cruel, I will always hurt people, I will always be tired, I will always be followed by everything that has ever happened to me and everything I have ever done to everybody. I am poisonous in a way the word doesn't command, I am ruinous in a way the word does not command, yet I am all commands from the psychopomps in my head vying to get me to a place where they can do their fucking job---that's what I've settled on what they are, they're not gods! They're not gods! They're not gods! I can vacillate back and forth so violently between lucidity and incomprehensibility, but my neck remains as intact as it ever has been. They're not gods! My head tilts to the left, not because of physical malady, but because they live there; they live in a way I will never, and in a way I was never meant to. I am toil, I am soil, I will boil boil boil, I will boil boil. My words are bilious at best when not from they, the benzene dripping from my lips boiling over from the giants in my chest that burn just as the wildfires rage in the forests that we live in. Gone! Gone. O, lost! O, lost! O, lost! and by the wind grieved, ghost, come back again! Come back again! They're not gods! But their words drip so lightly from the numb of my tongue that those in the way cannot stay---they learn to leave and leave to live. I cannot. I cannot. Gone! Focus---gone! I work for it, focus---gone! O, lost! Do their job! Do their job, ghost! Lost!

 

[leavingsoon99]

Well...

45% Childhood Trauma
20% Failed at Finding a Purpose
20% Mental/Physical Health Deterioration
10% Failure with Romantic Relationships
5% Failure with Social Relationships

100% Life Failure

 

[charlotte_]

Hm tough question. But I suppose it goes like:
15% mental illnesses
30% feeling of insignificance to others
30% fear of failing in life
15% shitty life circumstances
10% pessimistic view of humans, society and the world

All of this combined create a void inside of me that sucks up and swallow every single strand of hope, energy of affection I ever felt. Even if I have a perfectly normal, or even a happy day, at the end it all comes back to that feeling of emptiness again. I don't matter to anything, and nothing matters to me.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

Born the wrong sex: 80%
Bored of life (probable due to anhedonia a result of the above): 10%
Dont want to grow old: 5%
Loneliness: 5%

 

[stareoffintospace]

Society and Social Interactions (with strangers, friends and family) 50%

Mental Health Issues (undiagnosed) 35%

Childhood Trauma? 15%

Wrong Decisions (+ choices I could've made to improve my future but didn't) 40%

140%

 

[NoLoveNoHope]

Mental Illness 50%
Heartbreak 30%
Trans 20%

 

[leloyon]

Mental illness - 60%
Life situation = 40%

 

[Source Energy]

Romantic relationship gone wrong, strong dislike of the way humans interact with each other, tired of competition for everything, just want peace and quiet
No particular percentage, it's all together

 

[goodbye_._]

Mental illness - 40%
Trauma - 50%
Chronic illness - 30%

Total - 120%

 

[Raven2]

Interesting thread epic

Breakdown of reationship/marriage 50%
Loneliness 30%
Mental illness depression 20%

 

[endless_pain]

Lack of focus toward goals: 50%
Perfectionism: 20%
Lack of relationships/friends: 30%

 

[azalea087]

Mental illness 70%
Family issues 20%
Failed Relationship 10%
total 100% idk theres alot more that is hard to put into percentages.

 

[Sammie_com.sanrio]

I don't know if I have mental issues since I never got the opportunity to get diagnosed

School: 10%

No friends irl: 30%

Parents:20%

Staying alive 40%

 

[Kodokushi]

Let's see...
Lack of control - 100%
Mental illness + past trauma/abuse - 50%
Financial troubles (low income, hard to work) - 30%
Hatred of physical routine (eating, toilet, washing, etc) - 15%
Social isolation - 5-10%

The most devastating to me is obviously lack of control. I can't change the world, can't help anyone, can't help myself, can't fix anything, make stuff better, etc etc. And it's RUINING me. Knowing no matter what I do I won't ever be able to turn tables is...terrible. I do believe it comes from my mental issues, but it's an own issue in itself lol. Rotting mental health comes second - ruined everything, ruins physical health every living day too. Due to it it's hard to work, hard to even think about getting a better job and/or income increase, and mine is already low af + waste way too much on just L I V I N G, and it pisses me off. Constant needs also do piss me off, I don't want to eat, I don't want to waste time peeing (excuse me), I hate washing ten thousand times because skin/hair oily/dirty/itchy, the only tolerable routine is sleeping because it turns off consciousness and sometimes spices things up with dreams, but I have to waste time on it and be awake during the day cause at night time nothing works. Social isolation is self explanatory, although I don't need it - there are big disadvantages to being a hermit

 

[outrider567]

Long time girlfriend lifelong companion dead - 100%