luxsuircides
the view from halfway down
- Oct 16, 2023
- 20
i wish i could end this cycle. i feel as if i am constantly going through all of these extreme emotions and i will either feel everything or nothing. as i sh on my lower arms i came to the realization that only hurting myself will cause some relief. it's been years and years of trying this and trying that. the mental health system is a joke. as i sit on my bed i wonder how i got here. three attempts that have led to nothing but me being in a mental hospital that didn't even help me. i didn't expect to be alive at 16 let alone 18. all i want now is to have someone jump with me at night while we look at the stars. all i desire is to be happy with someone at my last time and not regret it.
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