Ash
What dreams may come?
- Oct 4, 2021
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Gotta love BPD mood swings. I've been awake for 13 hours today and in that time, I've hated myself, self harmed (badly), felt calm and clear headed, enjoyed sitting in the spring sunshine in the garden, had something healthy to eat, felt low and despairing, engaged in more self destructive behaviour, cheered up, and now on the verge of an anxiety attack. And this is a day where nothing has actually happened: I've just been existing. FML.
On the plus side, the dog is absolutely thrilled as I washed her bed so it's extra fluffy, and today marks the start of six months of her being able to sunbathe by the living room window in the afternoon (British weather allowing) as the house is weirdly aligned(ish) with the vernal equinox.
On the plus side, the dog is absolutely thrilled as I washed her bed so it's extra fluffy, and today marks the start of six months of her being able to sunbathe by the living room window in the afternoon (British weather allowing) as the house is weirdly aligned(ish) with the vernal equinox.
