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VanillaCake

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I pray you find a gf soon Jey
 
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You don't have enough exposure? Not sure to understand what you mean here.
Ah I understand caring too easily, it can get exhausting pretty fast
 
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You don't have enough exposure? Not sure to understand what you mean here.
Ah I understand caring too easily, it can get exhausting pretty fast
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Exposure to talking to girls face to face. Havent dated in a while and i was even nervous before
Not exhausting but painful too if you gotta deal with their emotions too and its a bomb if you brwak up
 
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Exposure to talking to girls face to face. Havent dated in a while and i was even nervous before
Not exhausting but painful too if you gotta deal with their emotions too and its a bomb if you brwak up
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I understand. Do you miss dating a lot? Or maybe even companionship?
 
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I understand. Do you miss it a lot?
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A bit. Im not getting younger so i feel some pressure. Also recently realized social interaction is a need so im trying to do them both at the same time
 
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A bit. Im not getting younger so i feel some pressure. Also recently realized social interaction is a need so im trying to do them both at the same time
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How old are you? I've seen some 90+yo chaps still getting some action in nursing homes if that can reassure you 😂
 
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How old are you? I've seen some 90+yo chaps still getting some action in nursing homes if that can reassure you 😂
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Ive never revealed my age publicly here because im ashamed
Not that old, but some of the younger fish i can still catch get turned off by it
I used to lie in the past about things out of shame and i dont wanna do it anymore
In some ways im wiser than my age but in others im not
 
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Ive never revealed my age publicly here because im ashamed
Not that old, but some of the younger fish i can still catch get turned off by it
I used to lie in the past about things out of shame and i dont wanna do it anymore
In some ways im wiser than my age but in others im not
Damn that's pretty old 😂 just kidding. I think it's better to be upfront most of the time. It's good that you don't want to lie anymore though
 
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Damn that's pretty old 😂 just kidding. I think it's better to be upfront most of the time. It's good that you don't want to lie anymore though
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Looking at my younger self makes me think hes so cute. Even though years before i thought he wasnt all that
Looking at my old texts with my exs made me feel pretty though, and a bit sad
My old self was a bit more uglier on the inside and said some cruel things. And blamed without understanding
 
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Looking at my younger self makes me think hes so cute. Even though years before i thought he wasnt all that
Looking at my old texts with my exs made me feel pretty though, and a bit sad
My old self was a bit more uglier on the inside and said some cruel things. And blamed without understanding
We all make mistakes. What matters is what we learn from them and whether we decide to change for the better.
If you're self aware enough to reflect on that, I'm sure you can try to re-enter the dating scene and do your best. At the end of the day, every fish of the pond is flawed in its own way so be compassionate towards yourself 💙
 
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We all make mistakes. What matters is what we learn from them and whether we decide to change for the better.
If you're self aware enough to reflect on that, I'm sure you can try to re-enter the dating scene and do your best. At the end of the day, every fish of the pond is flawed in its own way so be compassionate towards yourself 💙
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No im pretty ruthless with myself. Just like my parents taught me
Im more sad i cant be both pretty on the outside and inside
Why cant i have both
 
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No im pretty ruthless with myself. Just like my parents taught me
Im more sad i cant be both pretty on the outside and inside
Why cant i have both
You can be both to someone, I believe. But being ruthless with yourself might make it harder for others to love you (I know this all too well)
 
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You can be both to someone, I believe. But being ruthless with yourself might make it harder for others to love you (I know this all too well)
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Ehh im sure if i could help it i wiuldnt be here
Wouldnt have tried to kill myself
Wouldnt keep having ideation for the rest of my life
 
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Ehh im sure if i could help it i wiuldnt be here
Wouldnt have tried to kill myself
Wouldnt keep having ideation for the rest of my life
Dont worry, I'm just sharing my opinion, not speaking it as an ultimate truth. I'm here to ctb as well after all
 
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Dont worry, I'm just sharing my opinion, not speaking it as an ultimate truth. I'm here to ctb as well after all
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I... actually dont wanna die, living with the pain is just hard
Im over my attempt but it cost me 4 years. I suplose that is still less than most ppl here lose
 
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