Games Boys vs girls counting game

[Namelesa]

386

 

[Electra]

385

 

[Namelesa]

384

 

[Electra]

383
Sorry to hear that :(

 

[Namelesa]

382

 

[Electra]

381

 

[Sannti]

380

 

[Namelesa]

379 I just don't know I am supposed to cope in the environment I am in especially as I think death is the more logical answer but hard to do that when trapped

 

[Electra]

378
I'm sorry if it's an insensitive question - but why are you trapped rn? Are you locked in somewhere?

 

[Namelesa]

377 by family. can't go outside on my own at all and can't buy anything without their permission

 

[Electra]

376
Omg I'm so sorry abt that! I don't wanna make you uncomfortable, but you're a legal adult, shouldn't you have a choice legally?

 

[Namelesa]

375 legally yes I should have that but my family doesn't trust me cus of my suicidalness. I have even rung the police once about it and they did nothing cus my parents were just saying they were keeping me "safe"

 

[Electra]

374
Oh I see. You're actually trapped there

 

[Namelesa]

373

 

[Electra]

372

 

[Namelesa]

371

 

[Electra]

370

 

[Namelesa]

369

 

[Electra]

368
Gtg to bed, sweet dreams to you <3

 

[Namelesa]

367 good night @Electra

 

[Electra]

366
You're so creative with these, love it!
@Namelesa

 

[Namelesa]

366
You're so creative with these, love it!
@Namelesa

365 thank you <3

 

[whitetaildeer]

366

legally yes I should have that but my family doesn't trust me cus of my suicidalness. I have even rung the police once about it and they did nothing cus my parents were just saying they were keeping me "safe"

naturally the police failed to do anything if only law enforcement was even just 10% more helpful...

i wonder if there's any steps you can take, even if it requires lying. like telling them your card is stolen and you have reason to believe your family is spending money while refusing to give you access, that you want to contribute to society by getting a job but your parents are insisting you're helpless, or that your parents are trying to keep you in a fragile state to put you under a conservatorship you have no reason being in.

i'm not sure how helpful these would be but this is at the top of my head. i have a vague memory of my mother making me call the police because my dad dared to show up in his own house and he was forced to leave.

 

[Namelesa]

366

naturally the police failed to do anything if only law enforcement was even just 10% more helpful...

i wonder if there's any steps you can take, even if it requires lying. like telling them your card is stolen and you have reason to believe your family is spending money while refusing to give you access, that you want to contribute to society by getting a job but your parents are insisting you're helpless, or that your parents are trying to keep you in a fragile state to put you under a conservatorship you have no reason being in.

i'm not sure how helpful these would be but this is at the top of my head. i have a vague memory of my mother making me call the police because my dad dared to show up in his own house and he was forced to leave.

I have no idea if that would work. NHS mental health help and police know I have a history of suicide attempts, especially ones that involve me running away. I couldn't lie about contributing to society through a job as I literally can't handle any job. I literally have a non fit for work certificate. I also worry about actually going to prison as the police call I did caused me to have a non-arrest so the next call I do could lead me to getting arrested.

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[whitetaildeer]

366

I have no idea if that would work. NHS mental health help and police know I have a history of suicide attempts, especially ones that involve me running away. I couldn't lie about contributing to society through a job as I literally can't handle any job. I literally have a non fit for work certificate. I also worry about actually going to prison as the police call I did caused me to have a non-arrest so the next call I do could lead me to getting arrested.

oh god wtf??? i'm so sorry. what the hell is with the people with power in your life consistently failing you...

 

[Namelesa]

366

oh god wtf??? i'm so sorry. what the hell is with the people with power in your life consistently failing you...

to be fair they have somewhat a good reason for it. My dad said to the police that day about me physically hitting him and my mum cus of how angry I can get tho I do not feel any guilt or remorse in how I have hurt them as I think they deserve it cus of them birthing and trapping me here. Tho maybe I deserve to be treated like this too cus of the other bad things I have done that I do feel guilt about.

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[whitetaildeer]

366

to be fair they have somewhat a good reason for it. My dad said to the police that day about me physically hitting him and my mum cus of how angry I can get tho I do not feel any guilt or remorse in how I have hurt them as I think they deserve it cus of them birthing and trapping me here. Tho maybe I deserve to be treated like this too cus of the other bad things I have done that I do feel guilt about.

that's awful. i don't blame you for hitting them one bit. you're an adult. they can't even respect their own daughter's personal autonomy which i find disgusting. it would be one thing if it was the typical, passive pro-life stuff you typically see (keeping an eye on you, asking how you're doing, taking sharp objects away) but taking your card away? not letting you go outside? literally trapping you inside??? that's literally fucking unhinged. if they were that concerned they would have institutionalized you (this is NOT what i want for you! these places are deeply unhelpful in my experience! just trying to tap into a semi-reasonable pro-lifer's perspective), instead of knowingly making things worse.

 

[Namelesa]

366

that's awful. i don't blame you for hitting them one bit. you're an adult. they can't even respect their own daughter's personal autonomy which i find disgusting. it would be one thing if it was the typical, passive pro-life stuff you typically see (keeping an eye on you, asking how you're doing, taking sharp objects away) but taking your card away? not letting you go outside? literally trapping you inside??? that's literally fucking unhinged. if they were that concerned they would have institutionalized you (this is NOT what i want for you! these places are deeply unhelpful in my experience! just trying to tap into a semi-reasonable pro-lifer's perspective), instead of knowingly making things worse.

They do listen to me about not taking me to a psyche ward as I have told them about others' experiences of it but they have threaten to do that if I continue to be violent. I hate them so much I would want to kill them to escape and jump off somewhere but I know that's wrong to do as Louie would be alone.

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[whitetaildeer]

366

They do listen to me about not taking me to a psyche ward as I have told them about others' experiences of it but they have threaten to do that if I continue to be violent. I hate them so much I would want to kill them to escape and jump off somewhere but I know that's wrong to do as Louie would be alone.

i wish there was something you or we could do. literally anything to get you a step closer to being out of that house.

sorry for continuing to harp on this if it's just not an option at all, but how well does disability pay in the uk? are you eligible? you have an unfit to work certificate; that's already a good step towards getting on disability. in america, i know disability is very dependent on exactly what condition you have and how severe it is (someone who is blind could get 3k a month; depression can give 900 a month, just as 2 examples)

i know your card is gone but if you were somehow able to get your parents' trust back by just buying a lot of stuff you enjoy through disability, then they stop keeping such a close eye on it because you're not buying anything to hurt yourself/ctb, you might be able to get a plan going?

there's also sex work. i know you have a bg in that and that's never ever something i would recommend (just due to how people treat sex workers; it's really bad especially if your mental health is awful), but desperate times/desperate measures.

 

[Namelesa]

366

i wish there was something you or we could do. literally anything to get you a step closer to being out of that house.

sorry for continuing to harp on this if it's just not an option at all, but how well does disability pay in the uk? are you eligible? you have an unfit to work certificate; that's already a good step towards getting on disability. in america, i know disability is very dependent on exactly what condition you have and how severe it is (someone who is blind could get 3k a month; depression can give 900 a month, just as 2 examples)

i know your card is gone but if you were somehow able to get your parents' trust back by just buying a lot of stuff you enjoy through disability, then they stop keeping such a close eye on it because you're not buying anything to hurt yourself/ctb, you might be able to get a plan going?

there's also sex work. i know you have a bg in that and that's never ever something i would recommend (just due to how people treat sex workers; it's really bad especially if your mental health is awful), but desperate times/desperate measures.

I already have disability money from my autism. I don't know what to ask them to buy tho as I am enjoying less and less things as time passes. I am trying to get my bank details from them hopefully as mum is helping me to sell some of my plushies and she has said she would give me the money. Also hopefully in the future from me maybe potentially selling my game when its eventually done.

I would happily try out online sex work as I am such a slut. I even made free porn of myself in the past and people have enjoyed that and think I am attractive so its not something I am at all ashamed with. I am worried about my thigh scars making me less attractive now tho but my mum is thinking of allowing to get me something to lessen the scars or put a tattoo on it. A problem with doing this work tho is having my parents not find out as they are against me doing it and my mum thinks its illegal for some reason and to even get my bank details in the first place. I also wouldn't know where to start.

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