Discussion Born to Die

[BPD_LE]

This is written all over my teenage diaries (before Lana Del Ray stole it!) Do you believe some people are born to die young?

 

[sammii]

Isn't everyone born to die?

 

[BPD_LE]

Isn't everyone born to die?

Are some people born to die by suicide?

 

[OreoWellington]

Are some people born to die by suicide?

I feel this way as well. I feel like it has been my destiny all along. ❤

 

[sammii]

Are some people born to die by suicide?

Oh yeah, I totally was. I've been having suicidal thoughts since I was a little kid.

 

[OreoWellington]

Also written all over my diaries. Feel free to PM me so we can chat. It feels like we've got a lot in common. I could really use someone to talk to if you do too.

 

[sleepy dog]

Yes and no. Camus wrote how some people are suicides. Some are just born feeling the weight of the world and realising that life isn't worth it. To survive to old age you have to be quite insane really - blind, oblivious, deluded. There is a sort of extreme sanity in rational (not impulsive) suicide. I have always felt is my fate to die voluntarily, and that's why I've never attempted it. I've known since young that I need to find the right moment. It's coming closer, and I wish it wasn't. But I don't have a say in it really. Life presents me with an equation and the logical answer is to exit. I conclude on the basis of the facts of my life and my future that it has no value for me.

It really is insane to be aware of the horrible things that can happen to a person the longer they live and think to be alive is good. It really seems suicide is smart.

 

[Chantal]

I'd rather be blind, oblivious, deluded. Anyway, I'd rather be adapted.

 

[Willdieby30]

lana del rey??????? lana also suggests (perhaps ironically) in Lust for Life, that it "ain't right" that the good die young

I'd rather be blind, oblivious, deluded. Anyway, I'd rather be adapted.

id rather be dead.

 

[alexithymia]

Yes and no. Camus wrote how some people are suicides. Some are just born feeling the weight of the world and realising that life isn't worth it. To survive to old age you have to be quite insane really - blind, oblivious, deluded. There is a sort of extreme sanity in rational (not impulsive) suicide. I have always felt is my fate to die voluntarily, and that's why I've never attempted it. I've known since young that I need to find the right moment. It's coming closer, and I wish it wasn't. But I don't have a say in it really. Life presents me with an equation (adhedonia, sexlessness, dwindling heath, ageing, etc) and the logical answer is to exit. There is increasingly less and less to fight for, and at a certain point the tables turn. I conclude on the basis of the facts of my life and my uninviting future that a point will come when there is no longer a need to "hold on" and I will go contently. I intend to die poker faced. That's my final "revenge" on a world that offered me no love and no purpose. My death isn't worth a single tear, not even one of my own - it's the garbage of the universe being disposed of and it's fallen to me to do it. .

I love this comment.

 

[Haku]

I would say that I was born to just die. I was the kind of person to bust my ass in pursuit of a great life for many years, but bo matter I hard I worked and how hard I pushed myself, everything always just ended in failure, and I was so stupid that everytime I failed, I had a bit of optimism, telling my self, well I failed, but the next time, I know luck will go in my favor, oh man was I wrong, but I still managed to get back up after every fall, that is until last year, when I finally opened my eyes and realized, I wasnt meant to have a great life, I was meant to have a disastrous life that will one day make me take my own life. I was like a pig raised for slaughter. Every single day since then, I think about the chain of events that lead me to finally decide to ctb, and I start to laugh about how my life was just meaningless for the past 26 years, and I didnt even realize it, I was fooled by dreams of grandeur, and after laughing my ass off, I start to cry profusely. Its sad that I was born to then many years later, ironically decide to take my own life. I wonder everyday, what I did to be punished, I have no idea, for half of my life, I strived to do the right thing, and then at the beginning of the second half of my life, my adult life, I realize, what's the point in trying to do the right thing, when all I get is a big Fuck You from the universe for my efforts, so then that's when I say fuck this, and poof, I'm gone from the hell called my life