I'm sorry you're having a difficult time, let me send some virtual hugs your way
when I was at my lowest I bought 2 kittens and they were so fun and so lovely to take care of. I definitely suggest buying some, I had 2 girls!! Somethings that may help maybe watch a t.v series (Bates Motel is my favorite), find a hobbie or simply try to sleep and give your mind time to rest. Hope that helps