efffervescence
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- Dec 13, 2018
- 71
Guys I feel so done and ready to ctb. I understand that life has its good moments and for the last year or so while I've been recovering from a serious suicide attempt and I was feeling the good moments but now I've just been pretty violently sexually assaulted and I feel exactly the same as I did back when I tried to kill myself. It's not like I haven't been having horrific depressive/episodes in between but I really feel like this is the last straw. I just want to ctb because I know when it's good it's never going to last and I'm always going to end up here, and it's never as if I get sad it's the fact that I get so unbearably depressed so often that the mediocre good times just aren't worth it the absolutely miserable bad ones anymore. Does anyone else feel like this or am I just being over dramatic?