Booked a hotel for Monday to Wednesday. This is just not desirable! I hate this. I really been suffering long enough. That's enough. I have social anxiety and was excluded due to my skin condition and verbally mistreated because of it. I am tired that was traumatic period ages 14-19. The worse! I was brave walking around with that all over me. Man I knew I was miserable but I had no idea about this! This life is not desirable. I don't see how they expect me to digest this? I can't accept this! Yes the skin condition went away however for the most part I still have problems with it, and my skin is damaged. In society woman are praised for their beauty. My skin was horrible 300 bumps over my face those who were around me knew. I was so stressed and irritable because of this. I don't know it was too much for my little mind to take. I couldn't see how people let me leave the house like that?! And be emotionally abused and called ugly. I mean okay yeah the acne was ugly but I didn't feel ugly before that.
I'm never going to be able to accept this. No thanks I'm not going until natural death. I did the best I could with what I was dealt! Face the facts, it's inhumane to contain me here to spare others feelings there is no support for this and its like know one talked about it. I would go into my room and felt shunned in high school and middle school. I have no social connections and no social future I have very few friends I was called loser because of this how do they expect me to want this?
what options do I have 10 years of citalopram damaged me as well and because I was in SO much pain I abused alcohol, the emotional pain after that heartbreak at 21 was intolerable I laid in bed in PAIN. Stop forcing me to get back up I'm tired! I booked the hotel idc anymore I'm trying to write things in my final words without anger but this is inhumane. Because of acne I had no social confidence and feared rejection like the plague I lost all social skill. I tried and I worked under this physical condition I did good really good in fact because anyone else would have gave up! Had I know sooner I would have CTB at age 18 bet you that! I am done with this. This is NOT DESIRABLE and I'm depressed extremely depressed yet I worked in retail age 19-28 I am done. I completed my associate degree and fought hard there is no way life should have to be so tough and shit like this. The mental and emotional torment with no social energy it's just too much. I just sit in my room and work literally nothing is desirable anymore I'm sorry to everyone
I'm never going to be able to accept this. No thanks I'm not going until natural death. I did the best I could with what I was dealt! Face the facts, it's inhumane to contain me here to spare others feelings there is no support for this and its like know one talked about it. I would go into my room and felt shunned in high school and middle school. I have no social connections and no social future I have very few friends I was called loser because of this how do they expect me to want this?
what options do I have 10 years of citalopram damaged me as well and because I was in SO much pain I abused alcohol, the emotional pain after that heartbreak at 21 was intolerable I laid in bed in PAIN. Stop forcing me to get back up I'm tired! I booked the hotel idc anymore I'm trying to write things in my final words without anger but this is inhumane. Because of acne I had no social confidence and feared rejection like the plague I lost all social skill. I tried and I worked under this physical condition I did good really good in fact because anyone else would have gave up! Had I know sooner I would have CTB at age 18 bet you that! I am done with this. This is NOT DESIRABLE and I'm depressed extremely depressed yet I worked in retail age 19-28 I am done. I completed my associate degree and fought hard there is no way life should have to be so tough and shit like this. The mental and emotional torment with no social energy it's just too much. I just sit in my room and work literally nothing is desirable anymore I'm sorry to everyone
I wish you the best of luck! And I'm with you, I'm sending you my strength and I'm thinking about you. You are not alone, I'm with you. Whatever you choose to do, you don't have to feel sorry and apologize for it, I understand. I love you and I'm so sorry life has been so horrible for you
