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- Jun 16, 2023
- 12
if there are any others who deal with body dysmorphia and have any tips with how to make it hurt less, please drop down below?
tw 4 anorexia and body dysmorphia
lately i've been unable to even look at my body in the mirror; if i do my makeup, i only look at my face. my clothes don't fit on my body the same way anymore; i'll throw on an outfit that used to fit like a glove a year ago but now doesn't. i know i'm not "unhealthy" or "overweight," but i'm so unable to look in the mirror without feeling utterly repulsed. it's an overwhelming feeling
people talk about body positivity or body neutrality, but i can't feel anything but disgust when looking at myself, and it makes me so sad, and i can feel myself relapsing with my anorexia
i don't want to start starving myself again, but i won't deny that it's crossed my mind a few times. it'd be an awful way to ctb, but maybe it'd help me want to ctb less. idk. is there anyone else out there like me? i know there are, but it's so hard to remember when i want to snip parts of myself off with scissors or starve myself until i'm skin and bones. i want to ctb for many reasons, but this is a big one
tw 4 anorexia and body dysmorphia
lately i've been unable to even look at my body in the mirror; if i do my makeup, i only look at my face. my clothes don't fit on my body the same way anymore; i'll throw on an outfit that used to fit like a glove a year ago but now doesn't. i know i'm not "unhealthy" or "overweight," but i'm so unable to look in the mirror without feeling utterly repulsed. it's an overwhelming feeling
people talk about body positivity or body neutrality, but i can't feel anything but disgust when looking at myself, and it makes me so sad, and i can feel myself relapsing with my anorexia
i don't want to start starving myself again, but i won't deny that it's crossed my mind a few times. it'd be an awful way to ctb, but maybe it'd help me want to ctb less. idk. is there anyone else out there like me? i know there are, but it's so hard to remember when i want to snip parts of myself off with scissors or starve myself until i'm skin and bones. i want to ctb for many reasons, but this is a big one