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- Jun 23, 2024
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I dont know why but i always feel bad around my birthday. It feels like another reminder that i couldn't do it. I never imagined myself this old, I don't want to be this age. I dont know what i have planned for the future because ive never thought about it. I just thought i would he dead by now. I dont want responsibility, or occupations i just want to sleep. I am so fucking tired i dontvwant to do it. Every year i tell myself I promise I will do it, I will make the pain go away once and for all but then it gets a bit better. And at that moment I forget all the shit and the constant sadness and paranoia and anxiety and desire to die but then it fucking comes back and it all goes to shit again. Anyways happy birthday to me.