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Funeralprincess

Death never turned on me
May 8, 2022
433
So most of you know my main reasons for wanting off myself… well, in the past I've had anorexia, bulemia, and BED. I am familiar with all three eating disorders and honestly BED was the worst. Since my heartbreak years ago and my main reason for wanting to die, my BED has returned with a vengeance. It's so bad and I feel like slicing my stomach open to make it stop. It's something I can't control and the heartbreak is what's triggered it. It's on auto pilot, constantly showing up and ruining my fucking life. My BED is so bad that it's once again destroyed my intestines and they were already fucked from all the eds ive had over the years now it's just worse. It's to the point where if I even have something small in the morning my stomach just fucking burns, so when I do have the BIG binges, I'm sick for hours and end up sleeping excessively. I wish I could be prescribed topamax or vyvance because I'm at such a heavy weight and they helped me lose weight before when my BED was around previously, but my new psychiatrist says she won't prescribe them to me because it's the equivalent to "crack"…. I'm struggling to find someone else in my slap town area to help me manage this while I still sadly have to live, because I fucking hate this disease
 
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theboy

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Jul 15, 2022
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I'm sorry you're suffering like this. Eating disorders make you feel very bad. I hope you feel better
 
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Funeralprincess

Death never turned on me
May 8, 2022
433
I'm sorry you're suffering like this. Eating disorders make you feel very bad. I hope you feel better
Thank you so much. It sucks
 
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przeciwwymiotne

Be rude to me at all times, I don't deserve kindne
Jun 27, 2022
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So most of you know my main reasons for wanting off myself… well, in the past I've had anorexia, bulemia, and BED. I am familiar with all three eating disorders and honestly BED was the worst. Since my heartbreak years ago and my main reason for wanting to die, my BED has returned with a vengeance. It's so bad and I feel like slicing my stomach open to make it stop. It's something I can't control and the heartbreak is what's triggered it. It's on auto pilot, constantly showing up and ruining my fucking life. My BED is so bad that it's once again destroyed my intestines and they were already fucked from all the eds ive had over the years now it's just worse. It's to the point where if I even have something small in the morning my stomach just fucking burns, so when I do have the BIG binges, I'm sick for hours and end up sleeping excessively. I wish I could be prescribed topamax or vyvance because I'm at such a heavy weight and they helped me lose weight before when my BED was around previously, but my new psychiatrist says she won't prescribe them to me because it's the equivalent to "crack"…. I'm struggling to find someone else in my slap town area to help me manage this while I still sadly have to live, because I fucking hate this disease
I'm so sorry, I had anorexia too, now I'm full time in BED. And that's also my primary reason.
 
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Hollowillow

The only place that allows negative feelings.
Aug 7, 2022
1,515
So most of you know my main reasons for wanting off myself… well, in the past I've had anorexia, bulemia, and BED. I am familiar with all three eating disorders and honestly BED was the worst. Since my heartbreak years ago and my main reason for wanting to die, my BED has returned with a vengeance. It's so bad and I feel like slicing my stomach open to make it stop. It's something I can't control and the heartbreak is what's triggered it. It's on auto pilot, constantly showing up and ruining my fucking life. My BED is so bad that it's once again destroyed my intestines and they were already fucked from all the eds ive had over the years now it's just worse. It's to the point where if I even have something small in the morning my stomach just fucking burns, so when I do have the BIG binges, I'm sick for hours and end up sleeping excessively. I wish I could be prescribed topamax or vyvance because I'm at such a heavy weight and they helped me lose weight before when my BED was around previously, but my new psychiatrist says she won't prescribe them to me because it's the equivalent to "crack"…. I'm struggling to find someone else in my slap town area to help me manage this while I still sadly have to live, because I fucking hate this disease
Please pardon my propaganda, just see it as a way to express care for you.

I don't think it's a disease, just a confused survival instinct.

Society feeds us artificial junk. Eating grains is like eating cardboard.

You have a massive nutritional deficiency. Probably from anorexia. Bulimia was a way to undo it when SI won. So now he's binging to win.

Please stop fighting with your own body. Let just let him win that one (kill him later) but win the right way... So you both win. Because he just wants to protect you.

I read articles about what you crave, what nutrient you actually need, what to eat instead. It's amazing.

Sugar = vitamin C = veggies & fruits & bone broth

salt = salt? Maybe minerals? = Salt the veggies & meat they taste awesome. Chips are fattening with msg, a chemical that fucks hormones & make us obese no matter what we eat. Salted cashews are better than antidepressants. You'll shit so much from the veggies, no need to worry about healthy (not fried) fat.

Chocolate = magnesium. Almonds? Not sure. I take supplements

Murder & the blood of the innocent (I wish I was joking) = B vitamins, C to absorb iron = meat, eggs... If it's that bad... I needed supplements to catch up to the deficiencies created by years of anorexia.

Veggies will make you shit. I think healthy fats helps replace the fat filled with toxins.

Maybe eat small stuff often to teach your SI that the famin is over now.

I'd avoid spicy & drugs. Corn hurts me like crush glass... Grains are evil. Not wanting to eat & puking us wise when we eat poison. Just try to eat nature...

I do to feel less shitty while I try to figure out how to die.

Best wishes & I hope it wasn't completely worthless nonsense...

Veggies & vitamin c pills really are good laxatives.

I want cheese.
 
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MessedUp.

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Aug 5, 2022
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So most of you know my main reasons for wanting off myself… well, in the past I've had anorexia, bulemia, and BED. I am familiar with all three eating disorders and honestly BED was the worst. Since my heartbreak years ago and my main reason for wanting to die, my BED has returned with a vengeance. It's so bad and I feel like slicing my stomach open to make it stop. It's something I can't control and the heartbreak is what's triggered it. It's on auto pilot, constantly showing up and ruining my fucking life. My BED is so bad that it's once again destroyed my intestines and they were already fucked from all the eds ive had over the years now it's just worse. It's to the point where if I even have something small in the morning my stomach just fucking burns, so when I do have the BIG binges, I'm sick for hours and end up sleeping excessively. I wish I could be prescribed topamax or vyvance because I'm at such a heavy weight and they helped me lose weight before when my BED was around previously, but my new psychiatrist says she won't prescribe them to me because it's the equivalent to "crack"…. I'm struggling to find someone else in my slap town area to help me manage this while I still sadly have to live, because I fucking hate this disease
Im sorry you have to go through it again, ed's make you so fckd up:/
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
42,619
That sounds really awful what you have to endure. To me it's so horrible how life is capable of torturing people in so many ways. I wish you relief from your suffering.
 
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