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ward0x

ward0x

Member
Aug 22, 2020
30
A blog about my biggest regret in life... what's yours? Click For Blog
 
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AlreadyGone

AlreadyGone

Taking it day by day
Jan 11, 2020
917
Thinking that I could fix my problems and spending over a decade trying.
 
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TheQ22

Enlightened
Aug 17, 2020
1,097
I had an affair (I'm a man so i guess I was a Mister-ress), she was married, we started seeing each other about 3 or 4 weeks after she came back to work after her honeymoon.

She told me he was mean, abusive (aren't they always), and etc. I fell for her hook lie=ne, and sinker.

Eventually I realised she got off on it. She'd had an affair years before she got married, with a married man. The wife found out, he had kids, she fucked their relationship up.

And she probably got off on it.

After I ended it, her husband insisted (yes, he'd found out and he was a cop - more fool me) that she leave there and find another job, and she did.

Within a couple of months she was having an affair with one of his best friends.

Her husband then split with her. She left and lived with the other guy.

Then cheated on him, and got pregnant. Then cheated on him, and got pregnant again. and etc.

You wouldn't think it of her - very conservative family, very religious - people are complicated. Etc.

Life is hard enough without people deliberately cooking up shit burgers for other people to eat.
 
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Superdeterminist

Superdeterminist

Enlightened
Apr 5, 2020
1,876
Mine is probably fighting with my sibling, it got me a night in jail, a criminal record, and what feels like lasting trauma due to the entire experience. I want to be clear though, by 'regret' I don't mean to suggest that I could have done otherwise, because I don't think I could have, i.e. I don't think we have free will. I simply mean that I hate that I chose to do that. I remember I was so incredibly angry, I believe that my amygdala was really calling the shots in that moment, whilst my neocortex took a back seat.

I don't think that simply rewinding time would be enough to achieve a different result, I would have to rewind it whilst ALSO keeping the brain I have now. I know this has strayed from the main topic and entered metaphysical waters, but I think it's critically important.
 
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Life_is_comedy

Member
Sep 14, 2020
97
Thinking that I could fix my problems and spending over a decade trying.
This is what hurts the most. Just when you think life is turning around, it shits on you and pulls the rug out as if some cosmic force out there in the universe is playing a game with you and making you his personal punching bag.
 
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yep

yep

Member
Sep 1, 2020
52
Not doing it right the first time
 
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W3akCr3atur3

W3akCr3atur3

Empty and hollow
Aug 3, 2020
364
Not jumping from a really tall building 5 years ago.
 
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BPD Barbie

BPD Barbie

Visionary
Dec 1, 2019
2,359
I probably have several. Meeting my current partner, not dying in pervious suicide attempts, getting into a mountain of debt. I can't place one above any of the others as they are all my biggest regrets.
 
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nitroautnz

nitroautnz

Specialist
Sep 11, 2020
361
Hmm, its that my past relationship is over. but it's not really a regret, im grateful that I find someone that love me and care for me for 4 years. I never thought that it would happen, I realize now how dysfunctional I am, so im happy to leave this world with those drops of happy memory in a sea of depression and isolation that was my life.
 
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tidalwxves

Student
Sep 8, 2020
182
A blog about my biggest regret in life... what's yours? Click For Blog
Thank you for being honest, I hope sharing you story helps you grapple with those feelings. I really hope you get to experience an authentic love instead being the object of someone's affection. Sometimes it hard to tell the difference when you are in the middle but the results of that really hurt people and it's brave of you to be transparent about that hurt.
 
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Wisdom3_1-9

he/him/his
Jul 19, 2020
1,939
My biggest regret? Trusting a certain person. But there are so many regrets that have led me to this point.
 
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mahakaliSS_MahaDurga

mahakaliSS_MahaDurga

Visionary
Apr 2, 2020
2,399
Not doing it a year ago.
 
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Meditation guide

Meditation guide

Always was, is, and always shall be.
Jun 22, 2020
6,082
I was in my early 20s. Someone I knew had a young german sheppard who was going to take it to the woods and shoot it just because they didn't want it. So in an attempt to rescue it, I got someone who I knew to take it in and he ended up beating it to death tied to a tree! That is my biggest and most horrible regret, it was all my fault. I still cry if I let myself think of that. How could I do that to that poor dog. I know that I didn't do it on purpose but still, I can't forgive myself.
 
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Meretlein

Meretlein

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Feb 15, 2019
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I was in my early 20s. Someone I knew had a young german sheppard who was going to take it to the woods and shoot it just because they didn't want it. So in an attempt to rescue it, I got someone who I knew to take it in and he ended up beating it to death tied to a tree! That is my biggest and most horrible regret, it was all my fault. I still cry if I let myself think of that. How could I do that to that poor dog. I know that I didn't do it on purpose but still, I can't forgive myself.

Don't blame yourself, how could you have known?
 
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okaoki

okaoki

last
Aug 4, 2018
251
not ending my life a year ago , believing there's hope , thing could change , people don't change .
 
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Lordsudbury

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Jul 26, 2020
306
I was in my early 20s. Someone I knew had a young german sheppard who was going to take it to the woods and shoot it just because they didn't want it. So in an attempt to rescue it, I got someone who I knew to take it in and he ended up beating it to death tied to a tree! That is my biggest and most horrible regret, it was all my fault. I still cry if I let myself think of that. How could I do that to that poor dog. I know that I didn't do it on purpose but still, I can't forgive myself.

I was in my early 20s. Someone I knew had a young german sheppard who was going to take it to the woods and shoot it just because they didn't want it. So in an attempt to rescue it, I got someone who I knew to take it in and he ended up beating it to death tied to a tree! That is my biggest and most horrible regret, it was all my fault. I still cry if I let myself think of that. How could I do that to that poor dog. I know that I didn't do it on purpose but still, I can't forgive myself.
What the FUCK
A blog about my biggest regret in life... what's yours? Click For Blog
So he was using you to cheat on his girlfriend? Ugly behaviour. I noticed you posted this back in 2017...now, a testament to people who say, get over it, it's not a big deal, etc. Trauma lasts forever. It's part of your enduring story, a chapter in a book. It doesn't go away.
 
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Mr2005

Mr2005

Don't shoot the messenger, give me the gun
Sep 25, 2018
3,621
Gone through it a thousand times and it gets worse every time. If you really want to know it's all there but unless you have the power to change it it doesn't do any good to keep going over it. It wouldn't have mattered if I hadn't answered this at all but I felt compelled
 
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greebo6

Enlightened
Sep 11, 2020
1,664
There's a number of them but the biggest is simply not ending my existence years ago.
 
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Forgotten

Forgotten

Student
Aug 19, 2020
129
Not CTB'ing a decade ago.
 
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Meditation guide

Meditation guide

Always was, is, and always shall be.
Jun 22, 2020
6,082
I wish I had died a long time ago.
 
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AJ95

AJ95

24/7 sylvia plath
Sep 3, 2020
478
Pretending to be happy and someone I wasn't for so long instead of getting help when I was younger and it might have actually worked.
 
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ronigail9

Student
Oct 5, 2019
156
Waking up from suicide attempt and also meeting my husband for his sake
 
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TooConscious

Enlightened
Sep 16, 2020
1,151
Turning into a prick, behaving like a twatvout of anger at people's disgusting behavior if I could go back I'd have utilised the anger to do something with it rather than just turn into someone I hate. At least I stopped that now and have been a grey man for over 3 years.
Ultimate regret I guess since we're a different person every day of our lives is surviving birth.
I was born straight to intensive care I can't recall the disorder but it was life threatening then I developed hooping cough which for a baby is life threatening also. I survived 3 different severe problems before I was a year old and my mum 'supposedly falling down the stairs accidentally landing in me' if the silly cow had of just finished the job then and spared me a life of suffering.
 
elzo5678

elzo5678

Member
Oct 6, 2020
61
Thinking I can take care of my own mental illnesses and not reaching out for help for years
 
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Worthless_nobody

Enlightened
Feb 14, 2019
1,384
Too many regrets to list but I guess the #1 was getting into the relationship with my ex. Also living my life for others and not myself.
 
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NeverGoodEnuff

Specialist
Sep 28, 2020
398
Buying into the lie: get married, have children, live happily ever after.
 
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TessB

Warlock
Oct 13, 2020
743
I desperately regret confiding in people about my mental illness. Absolute worst mistake ever.
 
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KleinerWolf

KleinerWolf

Account Wipe.
Apr 30, 2020
2,700
Not in a position to emigrate away.
 
Cursed4ever

Cursed4ever

I Want Everything to Stop
Oct 9, 2020
175
My Entire Life
 
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