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Chronicallyunwell
Member
- Aug 9, 2024
- 31
I posted my horrific health story a few days ago.
I know I will die by suicide, my biggest fear of having a chronic pain illness has come true and my heart and mind are flooded daily with this sense of doom and dread.
Fears of ctb:
-being left disabled, paralysed, brain damaged and still alive.
-what will happen to my boyfriend (although ironically he would have better life without me)
-fear of hell, being trapped in an afterlife, purgatory in this horrible state, or being a ghost trapped here.
I know I will die by suicide, my biggest fear of having a chronic pain illness has come true and my heart and mind are flooded daily with this sense of doom and dread.
Fears of ctb:
-being left disabled, paralysed, brain damaged and still alive.
-what will happen to my boyfriend (although ironically he would have better life without me)
-fear of hell, being trapped in an afterlife, purgatory in this horrible state, or being a ghost trapped here.