Better off without me?

[Smilla]

Does anyone relate to feeling that others will, quite literally, be better off without you?

Am becoming a burden to a certain friend and after I pass he will be relieved of my presence, and will inherit a significant amount of money.

He doesn't want to see me go, but respects my decision (to an extent). Am sure he would rather me try to live a happy life, yet he knows me well and what a shitshow my life has been.

Am also leaving money to my brother, who is probably worried sick about me although we are almost estranged.

Describe the ways you feel people will be, all things considered, "better off" without you.

 

[RacilyDank]

I won't be causing pain to people who care and want to help but can't (but will be replacing that pain with something else)

People who know the real me won't have to sit and be with somebody they don't recognise that only wants to talk about how fucked up they are

 

[BaconCheeseburger]

People won't be better off without me. I'm a valued member of my family, I work hard (when I'm not daydreaming about CTB). I'm an alright person to be around.

I just feel like shit and want it to end.

 

[Jaded]

People won't be better off without me. I'm a valued member of my family, I work hard (when I'm not daydreaming about CTB). I'm an alright person to be around.

I just feel like shit and want it to end.

That's unfortunate. Do you feel like giving up is the best choice for you ?

 

[BaconCheeseburger]

That's unfortunate. Do you feel like giving up is the best choice for you ?

I don't see the point of staying alive for other people. I'm tired, irritable, I don't want a future. My moods do fluctuate a lot, but I hate knowing that it always comes back to depression. It's an all or nothing situation, and I'd rather have nothing.

 

[RM5998]

Yep. My parents won't have to be bearing the cost of keeping me alive for more time, and they'll be able to focus on saving for retirement. I know I've been a sunk cost till now, but the savings on the college tuition and the little they have saved in my name would probably be enough to live a better life till my dad retires (less than 10 years away, so I need to act fast).

My friends (what few I have) won't have to bear my company. That sounds like a huge bonus.

 

[Anubiscan]

Well, i don't really want to live anymore. I didn't care about life after i got tinnitus 24/7, crackling and popping sounds in my ears, wich is causing my depression and anxiety, my only concern now is that i dont want to create a big trauma to my friends and family. To tell you the true theres a lot of people who love me for the person that im not anymore. Tinnitus killed me. The charming, funny, successful, intelligent guy is dead. So i was wondering what is better: to go and disappear in a far away place where nobody can find you or just to ctb in the same city?

 

[Ben]

I honestly have no idea how much people in my real life are worry about me anymore. I'm sure the news of my passing will upset them, but I've been out of their lives for so long already. For all intents and purposes, to them, Im already dead.

So now that makes me societies problem, and I don't like that at all. My family and friends? Not sure if they would be better off. I think they will be, but I can never actually know

Society? Certainly better off without me. I'll be clinging onto overbooked programs and organizations meant to help the lost. I rather save the room for people who really want to get better

 

[BjartNO]

Describe the ways you feel people will be, all things considered, "better off" without you.

Unfortunately, I feel that they won't. They'll be worse off. It's only me that will be better off.

 

[Trashcan]

Yes. I've been a failure and nuisance since day 1.

 

[skitliv]

Unfortunately, I feel that they won't. They'll be worse off. It's only me that will be better off.

This

Yes. I've been a failure and nuisance since day 1.

But also this

Quite contradictory I know

 

[Temporarilyabsurd]

I feel like I have to justify my existence , and if I can't ,

I don't have a right to live .

I suspect that is the result of toxic as fuck life messages.

the mist outside and the scent of blossoms do not demand a response .

Will it / they all be better off without me ?

Perhaps I felt I would be better off without myself , which is I think what was going on .

Now I'm veering towards being better off without a whole pile of fictional ,though materially mannifested and therefore paraded as ' fate complete ' chunks of objective reality . A Texas chainsaw massacre of cluster fuck culture.

It's just real.

Doesn't make it right .

Is it all my fault ?
Do i have to take the fall ?

Self destruction or / and self creation .

( Sorry for being a pro life vandal ... I've slipped to the other side ... I don't know how long it will last , it might just be a manic phase ... this is a suicidal civilization , and the only one's who don't roll with it feel ... suicidal)

 

[MachineGunDani]

Yes!!! I def feel this way. I'm such a pain in the ass and burden everyone around me lol I hate it tho. I feel incapacitated

 

[Anubiscan]

Yes. I've been a failure and nuisance since day 1.

You are not alone I feel the same, specially after all the horrible mistakes that I've done all my life, at least I know I'm paying the price like it or not. My life sucks big time and sooner or later I wil ctb...