Discussion Best way to become more depressed?

[TheTranstarEngineer]

Hey y'all, wondering about how to get more depressed. I know it's a weird thing to ask about, but my thoughts are that if I become more depressed, hopefully SI will go away and make CTB way easier. Any thoughts?

 

[second attempt]

for me at least i wanted to die for a long time, and things had to fall to the wayside before i no longer cared about anything that would hold me back. i had to be prepared and ready ig in a way. I would worry about silly things needing me around which caused me to feel obligated to stay. over time tho, the need to leave overruled the feelings of caring for things. how long have u felt this way?

 

[TheTranstarEngineer]

for me at least i wanted to die for a long time, and things had to fall to the wayside before i no longer cared about anything that would hold me back. i had to be prepared and ready ig in a way. I would worry about silly things needing me around which caused me to feel obligated to stay. over time tho, the need to leave overruled the feelings of caring for things. how long have u felt this way?

Not very long in the big picture, maybe 6-7 months now.

 

[absolomonisgone]

when the time comes, you won't even be able to stop or think about it. you could be on top of the world or down in depression, but when the time is right, you will know it and do it.

 

[TheTranstarEngineer]

when the time comes, you won't even be able to stop or think about it. you could be on top of the world or down in depression, but when the time is right, you will know it and do it.

Hope it's coming sooner rather than later, I'm tired of hanging on by a thread.

 

[darkythoughts876]

In which way would you prefer to end it all?

 

[FuneralCry]

I think that after all only the individual knows when the time is right to leave this world but to me just being aware of all the suffering that exists in this world certainly makes the thought of non existence sound so incredibly appealing. It's something horrific to me how in this world there is unlimited potential for us to suffer, this chaotic world that is filled with endless risks and where chance so cruelly determines everything is undeniably such a hellish place. I could personally never wish to exist no matter what especially as all we are destined for as humans is to decay from age. Life in itself really is something that I despise and see as being incredibly depressing, as anyway what we go through can get much worse at any moment.

 

[Netvor]

Maybe deppresants like :
Benzos
Beta-blockers

 

[second attempt]

Not very long in the big picture, maybe 6-7 months now.

tru, it took me a year and a half almost. ofc it varies for everyone but keep hanging on for now if u can

 

[vaguebluur]

Hey y'all, wondering about how to get more depressed. I know it's a weird thing to ask about, but my thoughts are that if I become more depressed, hopefully SI will go away and make CTB way easier. Any thoughts?

honestly i think you should wait and try some more options it sounds like you havent been struggling that long, when youve suffered enough your SI will go away like mine did after 14 years of trauma, hopefully it doesnt come to that.

 

[Mirrory Me]

Losing something?

 

[Oblivion]

in my experience SI is not affected by the level of your depression, my life is 10000x worse than 20 years ago and my SI is still the same, in the last few years i've become pig like disgusting fat and uglier than ever, have no friends and i'm extremely way more miserable all the time, and my SI is still a fucking whore that won't fuck off

 

[Kundalini Guy]

Watch people achieve things online and in real life. It puts you into a depressive loop, especially if you have no achievements or much to show. This is how I will remove my SI when the time comes, at the end of last year this nearly killed me but being scammed hundreds from nembutal made me reduce my SI as I was waiting for my delivery.

 

[Aisley]

Tom Waits' In the Cold.Cold Ground? Some Peoples' Temple stuff always messes with my head, too. Like, as a study in repressing 900 people's survival instincts.

 

[leavingsoon99]

I think of my life. Like the time my mother mercilessly beat me because I wore a cartoon print shirt underneath my church clothes. Or the time my mother beat me and left a scar on my right cheek. The time my mother laughed at her boyfriend beating me with a bike chain. The MANY times my brother would humiliate me in front of a girl I liked, instead of teaching me how to talk to girls. The time my mother told my whole family about my addiction to pornography. Thinking of my father leaving me without even a trace or a word. The part that really hits the SI is when I ask 'why' to all that. Why did I have to go through all of that? You know, because 'life is school', so there must be some purpose to all of that? To 'humble' me? To make me appreciate the beauty that is life?

Yeah, I think of stuff like that. It helps to have actual trauma that can never be healed.

 

[Lxions]

I'm not sure that being "more depressed" will make your SI go away or lessen. It's more of when the time is right, you can certainly try to force it, but it'll come with time. I wish you the best of luck in your journey, and I hope you can find your peace :(<3

 

[NGenIronFist]

SI would probably not be affected if you're more depressed
Taking depressants like Benzos may help more
Choosing a method like jumping off a high building or drowning to death might not be optimal for some people because of SI. Maybe choose something that you will be comfortable with?

 

[azurarcher]

One way to become more depressed is by learning. Learn in-depth about the many issues our world has, and soon you'll feel powerless and hopeless, and that this world isn't worth it when so many people choose to ignore the problems that can only be resolved by combined effort. People who worry about climate change, animal abuse, human trafficking, environment, human rights, ongoing wars, and other more specific horrors in certain industries, tend to be more depressed. And if you add personal traumas to this then the final result will be pretty impressive.

 

[Bobert_Beniro]

Use drugs. Especially those that cause euphoria, after a month of regular use, you will feel very depressed.

 

[Holu]

Use drugs. Especially those that cause euphoria, after a month of regular use, you will feel very depressed.

This... this is evil

 

[Valentino]

Not very long in the big picture, maybe 6-7 months now.

keep hanging on if you can

 

[WorthlessTrash]

Expose yourself to triggers. That's what I do.

Though, if there's a decent chance of recovery to the point where you live a life you can be happy with, try to recover instead.

 

[orca87]

Hold yourself accountable for everything in the past that added to your pain.
You either recover by forgiving yourself and learning from it – or you cannot live with being a failure any longer.

 

[voc_89]

for me I read manga or watch anime around depressive themes. I think I read somewhere that SI is huge in Japan. So mangakas have alot of i guess material on this matter. And a good few of them know how to tell these stories very well. The art is often well done as well. Very striking. Makes me feel like I am there, living that experience

 

[vaguebluur]

in my experience SI is not affected by the level of your depression, my life is 10000x worse than 20 years ago and my SI is still the same, in the last few years i've become pig like disgusting fat and uglier than ever, have no friends and i'm extremely way more miserable all the time, and my SI is still a fucking whore that won't fuck off

depression is just the begginning wait till youve been enough trauma to have multiple personality disorder, cptsd, eups ,gad etc
#

 

[Viranamari]

I'm not sure why you wish to be more depressed but each to their own I guess. You can expose yourself to triggers to make you upset. Or, I suggest educating yourself on this world's biggest issues. Things like AI, politics etc. will soon make you realise how horrible this world is and how we, human beings are useless unless we're rich or significant. Personally, I don't believe deep depression removes SI. When the time comes to CTB, you'll know it regardless of whether or not you have depression.

 

[𖣴 nadia 𖣴]

Severe depression hasn't affected my fear of ctb but severe ptsd is making it easier because the daily panic/dread gives a sense of urgency to quickly shut off your mind and body.

 

[ScornedStoic]

For me finding out the love of my life moved on completely and is in love with someone else, plus my body being destroyed was enough to push me over the edge. I dont have any desire to live anymore, my time already passed. Everything hurts.

 

[hellispink]

Trust people. When they betray you constantly, it will kill you slowly. Do whatever but with humans and it will turn out as painful

 

[Blackroom_57]

in my experience SI is not affected by the level of your depression, my life is 10000x worse than 20 years ago and my SI is still the same, in the last few years i've become pig like disgusting fat and uglier than ever, have no friends and i'm extremely way more miserable all the time, and my SI is still a fucking whore that won't fuck off

Interesting. I find that as my mental state deteriorates (I have actual mental illness) my SI becomes quieter and quieter.