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- Apr 3, 2023
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I'll check it outThe fucked up thing for me, is that my song is 'Shiny Happy People'.
This song is creepily haunting, peculiar and perplexing. Not exactly about dying in the moment.My favourite is of course Funeral Cry by Dark Sanctuary. The lyrics are about longing for death.
If i surrender is saying if i surrender this life. I'll break down the song, "lately I've been feeling so ashamed… by these thoughts I'm hiding in my brain, cause I've been holding them down but they twist me violently" ashamed of those thoughts, holding them down (pushing them down to not think them, or holding them down from others) avoiding it and silencing your pain basically. " im hanging by a thread tonight but this time I don't want to be saved" barely holding on, but this time I don't want keep hanging on (don't want to be saved from CTB) "let me fall, let me break under everything unsaid, just let me die cause I can't take what's living in my head"telling not to do anything, and die, and for everything that's left unsaid and can't taking what's living inside. "If I surrender to the monsters in Me" referring to, your pain, surrendering to your pain. "Will it set me free?"will dying set me free. "What's the point of holding on like this? When no one seems to care if I exist" what's the point to keep holding on in this pain, and when no one cares if I'm alive or dead. "There is no agony like being strong when no one knows your sick, so sick of hearing I should stay when I never would be missed" being strong in your agony but no one knows your in pain. Whenever they'd mention to someone and they'd say "u should keep going and stay alive" (anything along the lines of that) but u wouldn't be missed anyway. "I can't take what's living inside my head" can't take what's going on in my head, it's getting too much. "If you could see under my skin, you'd realize why I don't wanna win, if you could see all my abuse.. and spend a day inside my shoes, you'd realize why I just wanna lose" if u could see what I see, people would realize why u don't wanna keep fighting. Spend a day inside my shoes (a day in your life) they'd realize why I don't wanna keep fighting. "Will anyone believe the hell of being me? Before I decide to be the dying proof." Will anyone believe the hell (pain) of being me, before I decide to die. Hope that helpsim not exactly sure if it's a suicidal song or if i could've misinterpret the meaning because of my projection and/or because im not a native speaker but i like notion by the rare occasions
Also – Ghost by Badflower.Maybe my sense of humour is too dark, but I like the song "Bullet" by Hollywood Undead.
have a nice life are one of my favoritesHow to Disappear Completely - Radiohead
A Quick One Before the Eternal Worm Devours Connecticut - Have a Nice Life
used to love this when i was younger
Assemblage 23. - Diappoint
The singers father committed suicide. This guy writes some incredible songs. He wrote one about an aircraft crashing he was on. Gave me goosebumps
Please don't lecture me on a word I used on this thread. I posted this very early this morning to share some music I like. I don't appreciate it especially in my current state of mind.Ah yes
I highly recommend not using the world commit when talking about suicide. Commit is often used in a crime setting, suicide isn't a crime. U wouldn't say to someone who died of a heart attack and say "they committed a heart attack". Suicide by itself is a strong word on its own. Died by suicide, took their life, ended their life etc are much better terms to use when discussing suicide. Yes it's by one's action to end their life but "intended to die by suicide" is a better alternative, but saying committed suicide is almost saying it's a sin, just like any other crime when it isn't a crime, it used to be.
This is nothing against u, I'm just pointing something out, that's all… no need to get hostile with me.Please don't lecture me on a word I used on this thread. I posted this very early this morning to share some music I like. I don't appreciate it especially in my current state of mind.
They were very polite and not hostile.This is nothing against u, I'm just pointing something out, that's all… no need to get hostile with me.