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not in the stars

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I need a reliable, easily accessible method, please. I thought hanging was the way to go but seeing people talk about when it goes wrong makes me nervous. I don't have access to firearms which would have been my preferred method so I need something else.
 
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meatballlover

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We all want that. Search the forum and decide for yourself. It really depends what requirements you have
 
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It's all up to interpretation but for me it's firearms and then carbon monoxide.
 
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Hello and welcome. Sorry for what happened to bring you here. You found a caring community and a lot of resources. I wish you well on your journey and if you wanted to share what brought you here you are welcome to do that too. All the best.
 
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I need the same, I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to just painlessly cease existing is finally I can be at peace from this torturous, cruel existence, all I want is to be gone, I hope you find the freedom you search for.
 
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geepeedee

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Feb 24, 2026
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How do you search? I can't find a search functionality anywhere 😢
you will gain search functionality after you pass a certain posting threshold.
 
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How do you search? I can't find a search functionality anywhere 😢

u can do a web search (google/duckduckgo/bing/etc) for:

"sanctioned suicide" [searchterm]
that's what I did before I made my account and (eventually) got access to the search button.
 
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AndyXD6060

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you will gain search functionality after you pass a certain posting threshold.
Hey I kinda need ur help if u are free , I have been researching on lot of things n such but sadly idk if am unlucky or so but in japan most ways are impossible to do so, if u know any please let me know
u can do a web search (google/duckduckgo/bing/etc) for:


that's what I did before I made my account and (eventually) got access to the search button.
Hey I kinda need ur help if u are free , I have been researching on lot of things n such but sadly idk if am unlucky or so but in japan most ways are impossible to do so, if u know any please let me know
 
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idk what ways of CTB are easier in Japan compared to Australia
 
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AndyXD6060

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idk what ways of CTB are easier in Japan compared to Australia
I see, If you get to know any please let me know

right now am looking into the helium method but I have so many questions about it , is it okay if I ask you ?
 
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I see, If you get to know any please let me know

right now am looking into the helium method but I have so many questions about it , is it okay if I ask you ?
okie, ask away
 
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is it okk if i could talk in private n not in open if not i understand just let me know
hmm, unfortunately private CTB discussion (in DM) can have errors, that the community cannot correct... in the private suicide discussion forum, at least members can give additional info and correct any potential errors.

And the helium megathread (duckduckgo search "sanctioned helium megathread") could have the info one requests
 
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AndyXD6060

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hmm, unfortunately private CTB discussion (in DM) can have errors, that the community cannot correct... in the private suicide discussion forum, at least members can give additional info and correct any potential errors.

And the helium megathread (duckduckgo search "sanctioned helium megathread") could have the info one requests
I see that's sad as I have a lot of questions n things to ask

okk I will try it here hopefully it works

so I am in Japan - been searching for ways but all the meds (overdose) are really hard to get without prescription

so i walked like 2-3hrs to a place in search of helium but i only found these 2 of them I will post their pic please let me know what u think

1 - (3pics = its a voice changing helium - I think like 80% helium , 20% oxygen)

2- (3 pics = Helium i think its 90% or 100% helium -for ballons it said )


Please if u can look into it let me know which one is better and 100% for yk the result

My questions -

1 = So i did try to do some research and according to that it said like - person goes through terror , struggle , air hunger, panic , for like 15-30-1minute before they become unconcious - is that correct ? if so any way to idk decrease that like pain and so ?

2 = If u say the 2nd one is better well according to research its pressure + cold is quite high so if I inhale it directly it will - burst my lungs or some which is like failure thing (not kill just harm) how do I avoid that

3= can you maybe give few steps for the process I did kinda read the thread but my english is not that good and kinda stupid (I am sorry)

4 = uh I have heard there are idk places like where ppl talk about things and maybe decide to do the things in a group after metting up and such do you know any site / place where that happens so I could try there too ?

5= sorry a lot of questions just my life been hell since birth its kinda long story n trauamatizing so idk if u want me to share but yeah I am just hoping maybe atleast if i can rest peacefully just that been wanting too since I was 7-10 yr


please let me know and uh I will provide my discord id here am not sure if thats allowed but in case if u want -
 

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I see that's sad as I have a lot of questions n things to ask

okk I will try it here hopefully it works

so I am in Japan - been searching for ways but all the meds (overdose) are really hard to get without prescription

so i walked like 2-3hrs to a place in search of helium but i only found these 2 of them I will post their pic please let me know what u think

1 - (3pics = its a voice changing helium - I think like 80% helium , 20% oxygen)

2- (3 pics = Helium i think its 90% or 100% helium -for ballons it said )


Please if u can look into it let me know which one is better and 100% for yk the result

My questions -

1 = So i did try to do some research and according to that it said like - person goes through terror , struggle , air hunger, panic , for like 15-30-1minute before they become unconcious - is that correct ? if so any way to idk decrease that like pain and so ?

2 = If u say the 2nd one is better well according to research its pressure + cold is quite high so if I inhale it directly it will - burst my lungs or some which is like failure thing (not kill just harm) how do I avoid that

3= can you maybe give few steps for the process I did kinda read the thread but my english is not that good and kinda stupid (I am sorry)

4 = uh I have heard there are idk places like where ppl talk about things and maybe decide to do the things in a group after metting up and such do you know any site / place where that happens so I could try there too ?

5= sorry a lot of questions just my life been hell since birth its kinda long story n trauamatizing so idk if u want me to share but yeah I am just hoping maybe atleast if i can rest peacefully just that been wanting too since I was 7-10 yr


please let me know and uh I will provide my discord id here am not sure if thats allowed but in case if u want - [removed (also pls remove from ur message)]
the higher purity would be more suitable (the lower purity is for high pitched voices and balloon blowing, the higher purity even keeps balloons floating for longer!)

1) This is if CO2 builds up, eg if air isn't allowed to flow out
2) ooo, didn't think of that... tho u can test it by putting a glass of water near the outlet tube (once setup, not in the water but on the side of the glass), and seeing if it freezes (it shouldn't), there are also regulators for reducing pressure to 15lpm
3) don't worry, I can read and understand the message, maybe https://pdfcoffee.com/qdownload/five-last-acts-the-exit-path-2015-2-pdf-free.html has helium guides
4) there are partner threads tho I'd be cautious about them.
5) dw, all good, I have wished for that peaceful rest sometimes.

Also, keep in mind that on here there is no requirement whether a person chooses life, death, or other options.
 
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the higher purity would be more suitable (the lower purity is for high pitched voices and balloon blowing, the higher purity even keeps balloons floating for longer!)

1) This is if CO2 builds up, eg if air isn't allowed to flow out
2) ooo, didn't think of that... tho u can test it by putting a glass of water near the outlet tube (once setup, not in the water but on the side of the glass), and seeing if it freezes (it shouldn't), there are also regulators for reducing pressure to 15lpm
3) don't worry, I can read and understand the message, maybe https://pdfcoffee.com/qdownload/five-last-acts-the-exit-path-2015-2-pdf-free.html has helium guides
4) there are partner threads tho I'd be cautious about them.
5) dw, all good, I have wished for that peaceful rest sometimes.

Also, keep in mind that on here there is no requirement whether a person chooses life, death, or other options.
how did u get banned ? are u going to make new account on discord
 
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how did u get banned ? are u going to make new account on discord
mmm, I could make a new account, but idk if that account will get banned (and it was banned for suspected ban evasion, and a previous one was banned for spamming)

also, maybe we should take this chat to a private conversation?
 
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AndyXD6060

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Aug 6, 2026
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mmm, I could make a new account, but idk if that account will get banned (and it was banned for suspected ban evasion, and a previous one was banned for spamming)

also, maybe we should take this chat to a private conversation?
yeah we can but mine is bugged or some am not able to text / respond or even see private convo here maybe u have insta ?
 
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lunamoonki

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Aug 5, 2026
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I need a reliable, easily accessible method, please. I thought hanging was the way to go but seeing people talk about when it goes wrong makes me nervous. I don't have access to firearms which would have been my preferred method so I need something else.
Charcoal and carbon monoxide emitted by the charcoal seems really tempting for me . Sounds painless and peaceful. Drift off to sleep never to wake up again.
 
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AndyXD6060

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Aug 6, 2026
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Charcoal and carbon monoxide emitted by the charcoal seems really tempting for me . Sounds painless and peaceful. Drift off to sleep never to wake up again.
Are they easy to acess in stores ? what are the methods and such ??

btw do you perhaps know informations about helium , nitrogen as well ?
 
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Are they easy to acess in stores ? what are the methods and such ??

btw do you perhaps know informations about helium , nitrogen as well ?
what's easy to access in stores? charcoal? it should be.

i know little to nothing about nitrogen. i have a tank of helium ready but i have don't anything with it.

what's your question regarding helium @AndyXD6060 ?
 
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AndyXD6060

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what's easy to access in stores? charcoal? it should be.

i know little to nothing about nitrogen. i have a tank of helium ready but i have don't anything with it.

what's your question regarding helium @AndyXD6060 ?
I tried like multiple stores - none of the gases sadly

the only ones am like can buy are the small ones like 9.5L , 10L, kinda thing

and then the 400/200L tank helium but they have the nozzel for the ballon thing its like you have to manually squezze/press them to make the gas come out and fill up the ballon kinda thing and the pressure isnt stable

I thought that I could maybe buy a different regulator that could make it constant flow + pressures adjustable but apparently it wont fit on these tanks ..

let me send you the Link of the tank I speak of = https://www.amazon.co.jp/Diva-Balloons-Birthdays-Celebrations-Commercial/dp/B0BNL9BKNG/ref=sr_1_1_sspa?crid=3BIQMC5QLRMML&dib=eyJ2IjoiMSJ9.k-fVBbkomQImL3knV-KK43joAHPo9K6ww6tZB9XTDT0RacM07fSLowB5VahjeK8HFo8Uq42L2LNAdd2WYWxwEEQRaVjjQdUliTBKf9RhMKCzDUAf0Z5rH-Dj6Y8YvZj-Jf3cnAA15IeQsVG5L_oLByT2n3uNOJjc_21MZ1ORia_FTfy7VFRnIvYhoZ2Tn-KEXPOjfa1jUTShFd_QmEaPA9JOKBzdzAysgXNAC5tywNuBuJ4wO8Uu3cPYlarH2QBpOtc0wVWhdTX7eEVNyosh_77o6XmeHtkGJHGV1wj6uMA.LXCwML-il1sTvp0OsRZJDkJth0Pok4ntzEEOqJf5Cdo&dib_tag=se&keywords=helium+gas+100+L&qid=1786419287&refinements=p_36:-740000&rnid=5457067051&sprefix=helium+gas+100+l,aps,183&sr=8-1-spons&sp_csd=d2lkZ2V0TmFtZT1zcF9hdGY&th=1


Can you check the link and let me know if theres a way to idk possibly actually attach some regulator that will work n do the job

My initial plan was = Get a tank n attach regulator that will make it constant n adjustable pressure then use the tube and attach it to the mask or so then just inhale.


and then I found this nitrogen online = https://www.amazon.co.jp/Lungo/dp/B0GL72QNKW/ref=sr_1_1_sspa?crid=1LYBXLFH6IPF1&dib=eyJ2IjoiMSJ9.452hKHmXzyuLAGTaax64VxcZiRjwSxu3VBL6-s-Y1eCf-r5WfDkamg6y6eZCmrVgc69OHi8shviFTGbAU2l1BLjWdPlD3UUNekMECelb8pNHYWxPfcAp6te6vX6SZCbCpXa63EEjrqAijbvCS_nHVSd6d8yo9-FyBediMT0azzbzH_wRTyx34SsIgC6SeprGWUzEGyj6uTvCnZ8SvBS10xV-BTNZ1NALc_ENy3relFrlV5NB9R4u0GOPpHXpC0imzsewHXVeHgNDci7ZSelPVnH7ELI0Sg_CcEavlMMpWW0.XcmIyZeyRbVkfgZffcjJpQ01tu5x1t3yCswHyF9ezms&dib_tag=se&keywords=nitrogen+gas&qid=1786452411&sprefix=nitrogen+gas,aps,288&sr=8-1-spons&sp_csd=d2lkZ2V0TmFtZT1zcF9hdGY&th=1

but again its too small I think only 14L that wont be enough for - yk since it takes atleast 5-10 mins for 100% conformed method

btw my discord ID = drew_090
if possible to text on this so can respond better
 
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I tried like multiple stores - none of the gases sadly

the only ones am like can buy are the small ones like 9.5L , 10L, kinda thing

and then the 400/200L tank helium but they have the nozzel for the ballon thing its like you have to manually squezze/press them to make the gas come out and fill up the ballon kinda thing and the pressure isnt stable

I thought that I could maybe buy a different regulator that could make it constant flow + pressures adjustable but apparently it wont fit on these tanks ..

let me send you the Link of the tank I speak of = https://www.amazon.co.jp/Diva-Balloons-Birthdays-Celebrations-Commercial/dp/B0BNL9BKNG/ref=sr_1_1_sspa?crid=3BIQMC5QLRMML&dib=eyJ2IjoiMSJ9.k-fVBbkomQImL3knV-KK43joAHPo9K6ww6tZB9XTDT0RacM07fSLowB5VahjeK8HFo8Uq42L2LNAdd2WYWxwEEQRaVjjQdUliTBKf9RhMKCzDUAf0Z5rH-Dj6Y8YvZj-Jf3cnAA15IeQsVG5L_oLByT2n3uNOJjc_21MZ1ORia_FTfy7VFRnIvYhoZ2Tn-KEXPOjfa1jUTShFd_QmEaPA9JOKBzdzAysgXNAC5tywNuBuJ4wO8Uu3cPYlarH2QBpOtc0wVWhdTX7eEVNyosh_77o6XmeHtkGJHGV1wj6uMA.LXCwML-il1sTvp0OsRZJDkJth0Pok4ntzEEOqJf5Cdo&dib_tag=se&keywords=helium+gas+100+L&qid=1786419287&refinements=p_36:-740000&rnid=5457067051&sprefix=helium+gas+100+l,aps,183&sr=8-1-spons&sp_csd=d2lkZ2V0TmFtZT1zcF9hdGY&th=1


Can you check the link and let me know if theres a way to idk possibly actually attach some regulator that will work n do the job

My initial plan was = Get a tank n attach regulator that will make it constant n adjustable pressure then use the tube and attach it to the mask or so then just inhale.


and then I found this nitrogen online = https://www.amazon.co.jp/Lungo/dp/B0GL72QNKW/ref=sr_1_1_sspa?crid=1LYBXLFH6IPF1&dib=eyJ2IjoiMSJ9.452hKHmXzyuLAGTaax64VxcZiRjwSxu3VBL6-s-Y1eCf-r5WfDkamg6y6eZCmrVgc69OHi8shviFTGbAU2l1BLjWdPlD3UUNekMECelb8pNHYWxPfcAp6te6vX6SZCbCpXa63EEjrqAijbvCS_nHVSd6d8yo9-FyBediMT0azzbzH_wRTyx34SsIgC6SeprGWUzEGyj6uTvCnZ8SvBS10xV-BTNZ1NALc_ENy3relFrlV5NB9R4u0GOPpHXpC0imzsewHXVeHgNDci7ZSelPVnH7ELI0Sg_CcEavlMMpWW0.XcmIyZeyRbVkfgZffcjJpQ01tu5x1t3yCswHyF9ezms&dib_tag=se&keywords=nitrogen+gas&qid=1786452411&sprefix=nitrogen+gas,aps,288&sr=8-1-spons&sp_csd=d2lkZ2V0TmFtZT1zcF9hdGY&th=1

but again its too small I think only 14L that wont be enough for - yk since it takes atleast 5-10 mins for 100% conformed method

btw my discord ID = drew_090
if possible to text on this so can respond better
I really really don't think either of these would work. That tank is a balloon tank. I doubt it's pure 99.99% helium. Best you'd get is a funny voice from that thing O.O
 
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I really really don't think either of these would work. That tank is a balloon tank. I doubt it's pure 99.99% helium. Best you'd get is a funny voice from that thing O.O
its actually pure helium but thats the issues I have been facing well one of it idk what to do, getting them is just so hard if u can help let me know
 
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lunamoonki

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its actually pure helium but thats the issues I have been facing well one of it idk what to do, getting them is just so hard if u can help let me know
It may say that it's pure helium. But I really really doubt a helium tank sold on Amazon would be pure 99.99% helium.

TBH, i don't know what i am doing either. i have a tank of 99.99% pure helium that i plan on running tube into a exit bag over my head. the tank i have is only 106 liters - which i hope would knock me unconscious before it runs out. before i pass out, i'd put a noose around my neck and stand tippy toe on a small stool. once i pass out, i am hoping the rope would take over and i die from FSH.
 

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