Malaria

Malaria

If I can't be my own, I'd feel better dead
Feb 24, 2024
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There's a lot of suicide songs I like, but this one has been with me for over a decade during my darkest hours. The music sounds so upbeat, but the lyrics are heartbreaking.

 
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3/4Dead

3/4Dead

Peace, Love, Empathy
Feb 27, 2024
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Jeremy by Pearl Jam
Bullet by Hollywood Undead
Adam's Song by blink-182
Better off Dead by Sleeping With Sirens
I Think I'm Going To Kill Myself
Suicide (A Better Way) by Choking Victim
Suicidal Failure by Suicidal Tendencies
Suicide Hotline by Insane Clown Posse
Clown Show by Insane Clown Posse
Can't End Myself by Insane Clown Posse
Hey Man, Nice Shot by Filter

note: I do not like ICP, as they're not super terrific people but when I did the Hell's Cellar album was a real soft spot for me because it's primarily about suicide, and it's pretty good honestly, these were just the three I can think of. I also think Clown Show is a reference to the Jeremy Wade Delle case (as is Jeremy, obv), but i'm not entirely sure so don't quote me on that. The band "Televised Suicide" (the punk band that's only released one album in 2016, theres two of them,) has a pretty good album primarily about suicide too. They have a ref to Budd Dwyer's suicide (Hey Man, Nice shot is also about him)
 
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Morte

Morte

Specialist
Nov 23, 2023
371
Many of BMTH songs.
Bullet - Hollywood undead
Pittsburgh - the army affliction
Skully and twenty something - Nothing; Nowhere
You Found Me - the fray
No surprises - radio Head
Many of Linkin park.
 
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Tobacco

Efilist. Possible promortalist.
Jan 14, 2023
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Malaria

Malaria

If I can't be my own, I'd feel better dead
Feb 24, 2024
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I listened to this song a lot as a teenager when I wanted to ctb
 
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They can’t see what you see.
Apr 3, 2024
12
I've made a SoundCloud playlist for this,


Feel free to check it out maybe you'll find something you like
(Not self promoting)
 
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Mirrory Me

Mirrory Me

"More then your eyes can see..."
Mar 23, 2023
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
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These are the songs I listen to while holding my hanging rope looking up at the steel beam in my basement.
Chandelier - Sia (written by a suicidal alcoholic for suicidal alcoholics)
Swimming Home - Evanescence
Wash It All Away - Five Finger Death Punch (very "just fuck it all")
Lay Your Gun Down - In This Moment
Lovely - Billie Eilish (really just the chorus)
Hurt - Johnny Cash

Honorable Mentions
Bad Habit - Dresden Dolls (for when I cut)
Elle G - Newsboys (for those left behind)
Take It All Away - Red (kind of hopeful?)
Black Cadillac - Shinedown (cinematic shots of my funeral procession and at the cemetery)
 
LastBusHome

LastBusHome

Member
Nov 6, 2022
40
Way to Fall - Starsailor

It's not a track that can be read as being overtly about depression/suicide but I feel like it still fits. Life is long and hard and the worst of it is often yet to come. People will come into your life and for better or worse, will try to tell you how to live it. But it always comes down to you. You gotta make the calls. The track is both sombre and sobering. It can both reinforce despair and instill hope.

I come back to this one a lot.
 
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sadman710

Student
Mar 22, 2024
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Drown me in your sentimental clichés
Put me on a plane and crash it into the northern iced sea
I don't have the will to hear it anymore, to do anymore, to exist anymore
Put me in a rickety boat without any oars, and let the waves
And the coldness tear me, ruin me, sink me

Place me naked on a backstreet in December
I look for fights in order to get injured
I provoke in order to get killed, dismembered, annihilated
Nothing happens, I get nowhere, all is gone
Haha, everything is shit, and you think it is so cool

The being I once was is gone
I burn all my memories, flush the ashes down the toilet
Oh, sorry, did I sound sentimental now?
Your brain-dead opinion means obviously nothing

There is nothing cool to find in this condition
I am a paranoid, deranged and pathetic human being
On the other hand you're just as pathetic
But please, forget about me, I am history



Every night - Lonelier than the one before
Each day - A mourning



 
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melancholymallory03

Do cats live nine lives ? Or do humans ⏰
Feb 20, 2024
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Ash’Girl

Ash’Girl

Girl, Interrupted
Apr 29, 2022
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When I'm really low/bleak/disassociative or the like I listen to a lot of the stuff already listed and lean towards the depressing.

But on the occasions I'm not in the pits of despair, I'm usually fairly dark in my humour.

This is really an upbeat tune but the lyrics make me roll my eyes and sometimes even laugh at myself because it sums up a lifetime of impulsive attempts. Yay BPD.

And hey - it was written, so I'm not the only one!

 
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Bannana

Bannana

caretaker
Mar 10, 2024
75
"Think of me once in a while, Take care"
 
myopia

myopia

on earth, we’re briefly gorgeous.
Apr 8, 2024
60
I really love Taylor Swift's take on depression, especially in recent years. Tracks like hoax, evermore, this is me trying, my tears ricochet, and Anti-Hero really do a great job at conveying the many facets of depression.

Out of everything, it's this bridge from Dear Reader that sticks with me the most:

So I wander through these nights
I prefer hiding in plain sight
My fourth drink in my hand
These desperate prayers of a cursed man
Spilling out to you for free
But darling, darling, please
You wouldn't take my word for it
If you knew who was talking

If you knew where I was walking
To a house, not a home, all alone 'cause nobody's there
Where I pace in my pen and
My friends found friends who care
No one sees when you lose
When you're playing solitaire


I also really love Reflection and everythingoes by RM of BTS. Even without understanding Korean, the message comes through vividly. (The lyrics are excellent too though.)
 

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