I'm a newbie too and I have also thought of that. Maybe they follow so many steps and take so many things to CTB because it's the more guaranteed method to leave this world without any possibility of failure. But I also think that benzos will be effective for the same purpose; the thing is where to buy them. I have been searching a bit and I think I found a way to reach them. I know that where not allow to share links or names of dealers, but I just want to guide you in your search. Start looking for it in the dark web, maybe you find what you're looking for. But stay cautious of what appears there, 'cause there're a lot of scams out there.