Believers (Christians) and ctb

[shame]

Are there any Christians who are going to CTB soon? What do you feel and think about?

 

[onthefence]

I've completely lost my faith. I'm trying to pursue the "black nothingness." I'm not even really considering/ don't care that I could end up in hell. I couldn't even tell you the last time I prayed or touched my Bible.

 

[MercenariesofMidgar]

I mean I think I'm more theist than most people on this board (and I've asked my very christian friends about it) but generally if God is truly all loving and caring then I think he wouldn't put someone who suffered so much mental anguish in life that they ctb into hell was the common opinion. Even if it is "thou shalt not kill" I feel like that is more for killing people who don't want to be killed rather than ctb. That's just my interpretation though.

Though I lean towards a reincarnation/ghost thing. Like spirits could very well be real and once you enter nothingness/the light you'll eventually pop out of a mom, human or not. I mean I have some really weird personal stories that made me go from athiest to skeptic but that's a long story lol

 

[platypus77]

I don't consider myself as christian (anymore).

I was born in a fervorous catholic family, so I understand the conflict in your question.

There's some intricacies in the context of Christianity.

But let me tell my interpretation, catholics (my experience) tend to take the letters of the bible too literally. And I think this is a mistake.

Even while I identified myself as a Christian, came to reflect on this question many times.

My conclusion, if god is inherently good, all knowing, would never punish his children to an eternity in hell for not being able to endure a life of suffering to the point of loosing it's mind.

Although he may not forgive those who have not tried at all.

Eternity is a long time, even for god.

 

[-nobodyknows-]

Yes. I don't really know how I feel about it. I don't like it, but I feel like I'm running out of options. Hopefully I can be forgiven, but if I can't, I would understand.

 

[R2DNico]

I believe in God, and I would like to CTB soon, I believe I would be forgiven for it so I try not to fear it because my mind is giving me 2 options, live in constant stress or CTB. But I'm trying my hardest to stick around. The main thing I think about is my mom because she relies on me a lot and I wouldn't want her to be upset with me because she has a lot going on too. If you want to PM and talk about it my DMs are open to anyone, I'm also looking for someone to talk to since most of my friends don't really hear me out on this the way I'd like.

 

[shrizoid]

Are there any Christians who are going to CTB soon? What do you feel and think about?

I'm not a full blown Christian, however, its the religion I believe in the most in and would choose if I were forced to choose one, I think about the possibility of being forgiven if I CTB, but I'm sure that wouldn't happen, I think it would be straight to hell if I were to CTB

 

[human909]

I am but i don't even go to church so i don't know what to think about god, i am trying to convince myself about the nothingness in the afterlife. (so far going good)

 

[Corvette90]

I mean I think I'm more theist than most people on this board (and I've asked my very christian friends about it) but generally if God is truly all loving and caring then I think he wouldn't put someone who suffered so much mental anguish in life that they ctb into hell was the common opinion. Even if it is "thou shalt not kill" I feel like that is more for killing people who don't want to be killed rather than ctb. That's just my interpretation though.

Though I lean towards a reincarnation/ghost thing. Like spirits could very well be real and once you enter nothingness/the light you'll eventually pop out of a mom, human or not. I mean I have some really weird personal stories that made me go from athiest to skeptic but that's a long story lol

I would be very interested in reading your weird personal stories!
I must say that I feel very troubled by the thought of what will happen to me if I commit the act. I am not a full blown Christian. I wasn't raised in faith. And I'm pretty new to going to church (last three years). Basically my late father was a hardcore atheist and late mother a Catholic but lapsed. Ever since I was a kid wondered about souls or what happens when we die. The afterlife was definitely a major factor in my not going (ctb) sooner. Once people caught wind i was suicidal as a teen i was frightened out of it. It's just that now in my situation (34 now) I cannot cope with this anymore. Living almost feels like hell. And for me I honestly can't see a way out at all. I can only hope I will be forgiven. Over the Christmas period i was really trying to pray throughout the day. I can't say with certainty what is on the other side. From being around christians they seem to have confidence in their faith. Im almost in between. I feel there is something and i hope that my heart is what counts in the end rather than my unseemly last action. I really want to be a peace and reunite with my mum again.
(apologies if this made 0 sense)

 

[Sadgirl900]

Are there any Christians who are going to CTB soon? What do you feel and think about?

I believe in Jesus and am afraid about what will happen after i ctb I hope i will be forgiven but yeah there is some anxiety about the afterlife

 

[Richard Langford]

I would be very interested in reading your weird personal stories!
I must say that I feel very troubled by the thought of what will happen to me if I commit the act. I am not a full blown Christian. I wasn't raised in faith. And I'm pretty new to going to church (last three years). Basically my late father was a hardcore atheist and late mother a Catholic but lapsed. Ever since I was a kid wondered about souls or what happens when we die. The afterlife was definitely a major factor in my not going (ctb) sooner. Once people caught wind i was suicidal as a teen i was frightened out of it. It's just that now in my situation (34 now) I cannot cope with this anymore. Living almost feels like hell. And for me I honestly can't see a way out at all. I can only hope I will be forgiven. Over the Christmas period i was really trying to pray throughout the day. I can't say with certainty what is on the other side. From being around christians they seem to have confidence in their faith. Im almost in between. I feel there is something and i hope that my heart is what counts in the end rather than my unseemly last action. I really want to be a peace and reunite with my mum again.
(apologies if this made 0 sense)

It's a quandary and massive concern for both of us.

I believe in Jesus and am afraid about what will happen after i ctb I hope i will be forgiven but yeah there is some anxiety about the afterlife

Hmmm. You're not alone in terms of that feeling of anxiety.